Life Evaluation....C-
Ok, so I haven't written a blog in years it seems like and I know that nobody probably reads these anymore, but oh well. So tonight has been filled with self-evaluating and thinking and I'm not sure I came to any specific conclusion, but I just feel empty. School is going rather well and I can't complain about that. I don't have too much homework ever and I go to class when I feel the need to. Work is alright. I wish it was closer to Mt. Pleasant so I wasn't spending half of my paycheck in gas. But I am enjoying it.
I think that the void in my life is related to people. For some reason I feel so distant lately from my society, which is rather opposite of what is happening. I've branched out and am hanging out with different friends and such, but I still feel the need to keep to myself. I just want to reach out and reconnect with old friends. People that I used to talk to, people that I barely see anymore, people that I miss. My world is revolving around the few close friends I have here and I don't see anyone else. But yet I hesitate to catch up with old friends because I feel like we're so different now and have nothing in common anymore, that catching up would be pointless and rather depressing. Plus I'm not sure I want some friends to know the real me, because I feel I'm quite different from who I used to be in high school.
I also contribute being single as part of this void. I'm not the kind of person who can't survive without a relationship, but it sure would be nice and make things so much better.
P.S. I'm getting a new MacBook this week. Maybe this will motivate me to be happier and maybe write the next great American novel.
I think that the void in my life is related to people. For some reason I feel so distant lately from my society, which is rather opposite of what is happening. I've branched out and am hanging out with different friends and such, but I still feel the need to keep to myself. I just want to reach out and reconnect with old friends. People that I used to talk to, people that I barely see anymore, people that I miss. My world is revolving around the few close friends I have here and I don't see anyone else. But yet I hesitate to catch up with old friends because I feel like we're so different now and have nothing in common anymore, that catching up would be pointless and rather depressing. Plus I'm not sure I want some friends to know the real me, because I feel I'm quite different from who I used to be in high school.
I also contribute being single as part of this void. I'm not the kind of person who can't survive without a relationship, but it sure would be nice and make things so much better.
P.S. I'm getting a new MacBook this week. Maybe this will motivate me to be happier and maybe write the next great American novel.