Fall is awesome...
Dear Diary,
Well I'm going job hunting tomorrow morning/afternoon. I feel like I've missed the job bandwagon because it's too late, but I'll still try my damndest. I've found a new friend. So that's cool. I can always use one of those. School is going great. I don't know how many of you realize this, but I've switched back to Journalism/English and I couldn't be happier.
I feel like the last two years were great in the sense that I've found the people that I will keep in contact for the rest of my life, but so horrible and miserable in the sense that I was doing something that made me feel so crappy. I love music to death and it will always be a part of my life, but the constant, daily battle with teachers and professors telling me that I wasn't good enough and that I wasn't trying hard enough took so much energy from me and was sucking the life force right out of my soul. I don't think many realized how truely unhappy I was. To never get positive feedback from anyone, to be told that I was in the wrong area, that I was a horrible musician, that I couldn't cut it was ridiculas. I've never had so many negative attitudes pointed in my direction at once. I can even see the physical effects it took on me. I gained so much weight after my freshman year, my sleeping habits were shot, I felt sick more often then not.
The sense of relief I have now is awesome. I'll still be very invovled in music, but it's going to be for me and I'll enjoy it now. The beginning of the summer I couldn't even touch a piano and by the end I was able to play again and feel good about it. So life is good. When I get a job, it will be even better. So that's my story for today. Fall is coming and it's my favorite time of year.
Over and out Eric fans!
Well I'm going job hunting tomorrow morning/afternoon. I feel like I've missed the job bandwagon because it's too late, but I'll still try my damndest. I've found a new friend. So that's cool. I can always use one of those. School is going great. I don't know how many of you realize this, but I've switched back to Journalism/English and I couldn't be happier.
I feel like the last two years were great in the sense that I've found the people that I will keep in contact for the rest of my life, but so horrible and miserable in the sense that I was doing something that made me feel so crappy. I love music to death and it will always be a part of my life, but the constant, daily battle with teachers and professors telling me that I wasn't good enough and that I wasn't trying hard enough took so much energy from me and was sucking the life force right out of my soul. I don't think many realized how truely unhappy I was. To never get positive feedback from anyone, to be told that I was in the wrong area, that I was a horrible musician, that I couldn't cut it was ridiculas. I've never had so many negative attitudes pointed in my direction at once. I can even see the physical effects it took on me. I gained so much weight after my freshman year, my sleeping habits were shot, I felt sick more often then not.
The sense of relief I have now is awesome. I'll still be very invovled in music, but it's going to be for me and I'll enjoy it now. The beginning of the summer I couldn't even touch a piano and by the end I was able to play again and feel good about it. So life is good. When I get a job, it will be even better. So that's my story for today. Fall is coming and it's my favorite time of year.
Over and out Eric fans!