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So my posts have been really serious lately. I guess its just that I have a lot to think about lately
What do you do if your heart is torn. It's really funny when you think you have moved on, you have everything figured out, and know exactly what you want. I say its funny because all it takes is one gesture, one sentence, one breath, and everything throws you off.
Basically... I dont know what I want. I find myself day-dreaming. I have talked to Mariah about some things... I wish that I could be oblivious to the kind acts, the sweet guys, and just deal with what I have... Is that bad to say?? I just wish life were a little easy, b ut then again I guess I wouldnt ever grow up if it were.
Ive been thinking a lot lately- about the past: what all happened, how things worked out, what kind of person I used to be. about the present: What I want, what people are in my life, what kind of person I am, and the mistakes and decisions I am making and finally the future: Who I want to be with, what I want to do for a living, and where I basically see myself.....
I really think I have grown up a lot in the last few years but I feel like I'm lost. I love my friends and family and I have found myself trying to connect more with them because truly, thats what matters-
School has been going pretty well. Taking Immunology, Organic Chemistry, Parisitology, Chamber Choir, Concert Choir, and Directed Individual Studies. I want to get a Latin minor but I think that will push me back a year, but so be it. Our first football game is in a week. I cant wait. I got sick last night ( I have pharyngitis and possibly a kidney infection) I saw a lot of people I knew at the hospital too- how CRAZY is that?!?!? Anyways, I have to get ready for a choir picture, the only productive thing I will be doing today.
What do you do if your heart is torn. It's really funny when you think you have moved on, you have everything figured out, and know exactly what you want. I say its funny because all it takes is one gesture, one sentence, one breath, and everything throws you off.
Basically... I dont know what I want. I find myself day-dreaming. I have talked to Mariah about some things... I wish that I could be oblivious to the kind acts, the sweet guys, and just deal with what I have... Is that bad to say?? I just wish life were a little easy, b ut then again I guess I wouldnt ever grow up if it were.
Ive been thinking a lot lately- about the past: what all happened, how things worked out, what kind of person I used to be. about the present: What I want, what people are in my life, what kind of person I am, and the mistakes and decisions I am making and finally the future: Who I want to be with, what I want to do for a living, and where I basically see myself.....
I really think I have grown up a lot in the last few years but I feel like I'm lost. I love my friends and family and I have found myself trying to connect more with them because truly, thats what matters-
School has been going pretty well. Taking Immunology, Organic Chemistry, Parisitology, Chamber Choir, Concert Choir, and Directed Individual Studies. I want to get a Latin minor but I think that will push me back a year, but so be it. Our first football game is in a week. I cant wait. I got sick last night ( I have pharyngitis and possibly a kidney infection) I saw a lot of people I knew at the hospital too- how CRAZY is that?!?!? Anyways, I have to get ready for a choir picture, the only productive thing I will be doing today.