Back to School (and Work)....
The kids went back to school today, so time to get back into the usual work schedule. Or at least try to.
We didn't go anywhere over the last two weeks, unlike most everyone else we knew. I would have loved to gone back to Ohio to see the changing leaves and watch some college football in person. As of tomorrow I will have been in Scotland for four years, and it seems a long time to go without access to a Taco Bell 7 Layer Burrito. I don't miss living in the States as much as I miss having access to bits of it from time to time. I wish I felt more confident of my ability to get a job in the near future, as that is pretty much the only way we are going to be able to afford to do any travelling, apart from a lottery win. I hate to complain about it though, because it's certainly not anyone's fault but my own that things are as they are.
mtbc sacrifices a great deal for what we already have, and I try to make him aware of how much it is appreciated.
I'm not much in the mood to jump into studying, though I will try to do a little bit of something today. Truth is that it was very easy to do nothing but crochet and watch anime over these last two weeks while the kids were home, because I just didn't feel motivated to do anything else. I have an appointment with a new therapist tomorrow to see if Cognitive Behavioural Therapy will help this new bout of depression. Something has to give, because while I am going through all the motions of what I know I should be doing, I am not getting much in the way of happiness out of any of it. It all often seems very pointless and I'm wondering how much longer I'll go before the feelings of pointlessness make doing these things even harder than they currently are.
My stomach is unhappy with my today as well, which I suspect is direct result of food choices over the weekend, especially bread yesterday. I've gotten out of the habit of having such things, and when I do, it seems to come back to haunt me. I guess it's a good thing that except for the occasional sandwich, I don't miss it.
I watched a video of a panel interview with the voice actors of one of my favourite animes this morning. One idea that came up was something that I had never actually considered: that my favourite character could be gay.
Now in the context of the show, I can see how it actually makes a bit of sense, and under any other circumstance I'd be delighted with the diversity.
But in this particular case my fangirl heart has him romantically paired with the lead female character, so I'm afraid I have to reject the notion outright. After all, it's *MY* world, you people all just live in it.
Yes, once again I prove how no matter what the birth certificate claims, I'm really 15.
We didn't go anywhere over the last two weeks, unlike most everyone else we knew. I would have loved to gone back to Ohio to see the changing leaves and watch some college football in person. As of tomorrow I will have been in Scotland for four years, and it seems a long time to go without access to a Taco Bell 7 Layer Burrito. I don't miss living in the States as much as I miss having access to bits of it from time to time. I wish I felt more confident of my ability to get a job in the near future, as that is pretty much the only way we are going to be able to afford to do any travelling, apart from a lottery win. I hate to complain about it though, because it's certainly not anyone's fault but my own that things are as they are.
mtbc sacrifices a great deal for what we already have, and I try to make him aware of how much it is appreciated.
I'm not much in the mood to jump into studying, though I will try to do a little bit of something today. Truth is that it was very easy to do nothing but crochet and watch anime over these last two weeks while the kids were home, because I just didn't feel motivated to do anything else. I have an appointment with a new therapist tomorrow to see if Cognitive Behavioural Therapy will help this new bout of depression. Something has to give, because while I am going through all the motions of what I know I should be doing, I am not getting much in the way of happiness out of any of it. It all often seems very pointless and I'm wondering how much longer I'll go before the feelings of pointlessness make doing these things even harder than they currently are.
My stomach is unhappy with my today as well, which I suspect is direct result of food choices over the weekend, especially bread yesterday. I've gotten out of the habit of having such things, and when I do, it seems to come back to haunt me. I guess it's a good thing that except for the occasional sandwich, I don't miss it.
I watched a video of a panel interview with the voice actors of one of my favourite animes this morning. One idea that came up was something that I had never actually considered: that my favourite character could be gay.
Now in the context of the show, I can see how it actually makes a bit of sense, and under any other circumstance I'd be delighted with the diversity.
But in this particular case my fangirl heart has him romantically paired with the lead female character, so I'm afraid I have to reject the notion outright. After all, it's *MY* world, you people all just live in it.
Yes, once again I prove how no matter what the birth certificate claims, I'm really 15.