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I want to hurt myself. I want to feel it. I want to know if I still enjoy it. I want to know if it still works.
I wish I wasn't so scared that I might like it still. I wish I wasn't scared about the fact I'm pretty sure the feeling will still have that same...kick... to it. The same cold bite that's somehow warm and comforting at the same time.
I think it's time for meds.