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I'm missing past lives and looking at the quality of my friendships...this is all so sad...we used to be close, what happened? I ask you why you're pushing me so far away but you refuse to respond, now I know how she feels. Things don't have to be this complicated. I knew when I met you that we would know each other, I just didn't see that it would end like this. Why does this feel like breaking up? Looking in from the outside sometimes I think it looks like I'm in love with you, but its not that, its something else. I know this because this feeling is not the same wanting to fuck feeling like everything else. Maybe this is why its harder. When I played you that song I thought you understood what I was trying to say. I think you want a friend, but only when it's convenient. How strange that you would be the one to get me to start writing again.