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So, I havn't posted in anything in like forever... My life has been sooo crazy lately I barely have any time to breath... Between work and home life it just sucks. I can't make up my mind whether to move out or not, this morning I was all for it but now I'm not so sure... Was I just over-reacting and freaking out to get some attention??? I don't know... I feel like my decisions are balanced on a see-saw, I know that doesn't make sense, but to me it does... I make up my mind one minute and then the next minute I change it back again. WHY CAN'T I MAKE A DAMN DECISION AND STICK WITH IT?!?!?! Grr... Sometimes I hate myself for my indecisiveness... I think I spelt that wrong, oh well, you get the point. Anyways... some of you know what's going on in my life and some of you don't, for those who don't I'm sorry I don't really feel like elaborating, I'm just venting... I just want to figure out what makes me happy. Will me living with a failed relationship (that I'm over I just still pretend it's there) make my happy?? Or will it be better just to move out and live with his mom??? Or will that just make it worse, living with and getting to know better and depending on his mom make it all that much worse knowing that she'll never be my in-law?? I DON'T FUCKING KNOW!!!! I'm just gonna stop thinking and let shit happen because I'm done trying to figure it out... I can't...
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The End.