So ignore the previous post because I've had a revalation.
So alot has happened in the past year to make me decide that I'm worth having a relationship with and that I deserve one damnit!!! If you really know me you would probably think the total opposite, that I'd be a cold heartless bitch by now. But you know what, I'm not going to be in spite of everything that has happened to me. I know that I deserve love and one day the right guy and in the right situation will come along and I'll finally be perfectly content. You see I've already had both, just not at the same time and that's why nothings worked out. There was this guy once who I fell totally and absolutely in love with, but I don't think the situation was right. Then there was this other guy who was perfect for me. He truly cared about me and everything that had to do with me. He was always there, talking to me, hanging out with and just spending time with me. We has some great times. I'll never forget sitting on top of the dam in Camden drinking a beer and just watching the stars and they twinkled. But the situation wasn't right, why because I was moving to Cali., even if I would of never moved he was still going to boot camp and then who knows where his station would be. And the important thing about that whole situation is that as much as he cared for me I cared about him just the same. Maybe something can happen in the future for us, we'll just see, but until then we're on our own. I don't know much, but I do know that no matter how hard this (love thing) may seem, I'm determined to have it in my life and I'm not giving up 'til I get it. All I can ask from those of you are willing to try and be that man for me is that you treat me with honesty and respect because after all I've gone through I think I at least deserve that. The End.