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well let me tell you all how my night went.......
i went skating... .. things got hot between people.... things were said.. i walked... was i so wrong for doing that.... i cried over you again and again... but my tears are no more... i love you and always will.... you said i choose him .... no i choose to leave it alone... you dont want me around him fine i wont.. but he was a friend to you as well.... cant we all just drop it again.. be friends yes ... you have one your battle i have not walked out on you yet... you want time i will give it... i love my children and no one will take that away... but the words you describe me are not true... i am not want you think i am ... i dont get it one minute you are fine then the next you are screaming at me .. i care i do... i just wished you would too.. my heart broke tonight.. because of this..
i told you i wanted to go home ... but you didnt hear me cause that is not what you wanted .... i love you... nothing will change but if you want me out then i am out..... there is no need to make mends... you are a good person and you deserve better but i am not what you want or need.... sex is not the answer anymore.. nothing is my heart is broken and so is yours... you are sitting in the living room now and i am in this bed room alone as always.. you say nothing to me and then i will go on my own... i dont want it to be this way anymore... over... if this is what you want then i will go far away... dont worry bout me i will take the cheap way out as you would say... i would rather be dead then to have another man ... break me the way you and the others did.... i have played for the last time ... game over.. for me .. i dont want to be hurt anymore... i have no one.. no one at all you do remember that .. it is my fault for the accident and i take the blame i cant handle the pressure anymore... i wished it was me that was in the seat and i wished you would of seen what i did.. i saved your life and with out me you would have died... you dont get it ... i would rather be dead then to hurt anymore...the fighting the grabbing has got to stop i cant deal with it anymore... i dont want to fight with you anymore... no more... i hate living like this i am not a dog..or a piece of trash i was someone who wanted to make a life.. but that life you think should be somewhere else... if you want me gone then i am gone.. the bruses will heal but your words will forever be inbeded in my mind... this is all she wrote... chrystal mary
i remember when i was in love do you?