To one and all:
I think the biggest issue I have with people these days is the fact that no one is honest with me. And what's worse? They think I'm stupid enough to take the lies seriously. I despise lying and thanks to my dad (and his entire side of the family) I know when someone lies to me. And with every lie someone tells I lose more and more respect for them. The worst thing, the absolute WORST thing is when it's a friend. A friend lying straight to my face.
The only thing I know to trust fully in is God. He is the only one who truly listens, truly cares and truly follows through with what he promises time and time again. He's never lied to me. Whatever feeling I've had in my heart that I know comes directly from Him I follow and the end results are in good faith. Funny...what church I have been into I despise (because it seems most churches are sickly fake these days), neither one of my parents are big believers (my mom believes in God but has never discussed it with me)...so how on earth did I end up believing in God as I do, trusting in Him with everything that I have? Experience. Feeling Him...He is it. He is what gives me the strength to carry on and do what is asked of me. It is because of Him that I'm standing today, that a lot of us are standing. My life is far from perfect, just like yours. If I have faith in God and you don't that doesn't make me a better person than you, not even close. It just means I believe and you don't.
This entry has helped me to realize and I'd so like to be able to say this to all of my friends...I don't NEED you people. Any of you. I don't need you. I want you. I choose to be around you because I love you and I care about you. And I will do anything for you at any time, always. That's just the way it is. And I can moan and cry about it over and over when I get hurt but I wont ever change. This is who I am. I worry about you, I love you to death and I pray for you 24-7 because to me you are something that is freaking special.
It's funny...I think everyone's face has flashed through my head while I'm writing this entry. All of you fabulous people! None of you are exceptions to how I feel. Tell me I'm impatient, tell me I'm paranoid, a worry-wart, too sensitive, over-passionate about silly things, naive, stupid, ugly outside but pretty inside, too eager, relentless, nosey, irregular, a good little Christian girl...these are all comments from people I love. So I'll embrace all of these things. And with them, like it or not, I'm carrying on. I don't need your approval I just need to make sure you're ok.
I love you.
*Megan
The only thing I know to trust fully in is God. He is the only one who truly listens, truly cares and truly follows through with what he promises time and time again. He's never lied to me. Whatever feeling I've had in my heart that I know comes directly from Him I follow and the end results are in good faith. Funny...what church I have been into I despise (because it seems most churches are sickly fake these days), neither one of my parents are big believers (my mom believes in God but has never discussed it with me)...so how on earth did I end up believing in God as I do, trusting in Him with everything that I have? Experience. Feeling Him...He is it. He is what gives me the strength to carry on and do what is asked of me. It is because of Him that I'm standing today, that a lot of us are standing. My life is far from perfect, just like yours. If I have faith in God and you don't that doesn't make me a better person than you, not even close. It just means I believe and you don't.
This entry has helped me to realize and I'd so like to be able to say this to all of my friends...I don't NEED you people. Any of you. I don't need you. I want you. I choose to be around you because I love you and I care about you. And I will do anything for you at any time, always. That's just the way it is. And I can moan and cry about it over and over when I get hurt but I wont ever change. This is who I am. I worry about you, I love you to death and I pray for you 24-7 because to me you are something that is freaking special.
It's funny...I think everyone's face has flashed through my head while I'm writing this entry. All of you fabulous people! None of you are exceptions to how I feel. Tell me I'm impatient, tell me I'm paranoid, a worry-wart, too sensitive, over-passionate about silly things, naive, stupid, ugly outside but pretty inside, too eager, relentless, nosey, irregular, a good little Christian girl...these are all comments from people I love. So I'll embrace all of these things. And with them, like it or not, I'm carrying on. I don't need your approval I just need to make sure you're ok.
I love you.
*Megan