everyone deserves a chance to fly *
Where exactly do i start-
so ill try to keep this journal entry not too long. Monday consisted of a tough track workout, and then a stats test at 8 which i know i did horrible on. Of course, the stats test failure was followed by a mental breakdown and 3 hours of studying in the library... yeah
so i figured valentine's day would suck again this year. as people complain about the fact that you realize that your alone, i just say that it sucks because it should be a celebration, and for me it never is. But i got a rose from zach and a rose from dan, and let me tell you i honestly didn't know what to say. all i could tell them was thank you, but after my monday from hell they will never know how much that really meant to me. so i spent the day eating pizza and candy with liz and watching tv... i guess a normal day.
other than that not much to say. Track is slowly breaking me down. It is sooo hard to go from running amazing in high school... well not amazing but pretty good, to absolutely sucking. i wouldn't mind if i lost every race with the same time i did in high school but i am no where close. i miss being able to run, without pain, and enjoy it, and do it somewhat well. I hate having to finish track meets and pretend like i am doing ok, and i gave it my all, but sit on the bus ride all by myself (Cause marianne left me to hang out with her boyfriend... like all my friends seem to do at some point and time) and just cry. Just think about how hard things must be to make you want to quit one of the things that you love... times that by 10 and thats how horrible i feel right now.
I guess what doesn't kill me makes me stronger... but i should be like the hulk right now
i miss home and i miss being able to relax and have fun.. and i miss having someone to talk too...
it has been like a year since kyle and i broke up, and it seems like such a longer time. how is it fair that he has a girlfriend, allie and mike are happy as always, kelly has a boy, brit has a possible boy, and i'm sitting here typing stupid stuff on my computer... gotta love the curves life throws at you. i guess i should be used to the fact that life isn't fair...
maybe ill just knock on my wall and have zach come over for a booty call... :-p
<3
It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday I didnt know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by
But I will try
I will try wipe the tears from my eyes
so ill try to keep this journal entry not too long. Monday consisted of a tough track workout, and then a stats test at 8 which i know i did horrible on. Of course, the stats test failure was followed by a mental breakdown and 3 hours of studying in the library... yeah
so i figured valentine's day would suck again this year. as people complain about the fact that you realize that your alone, i just say that it sucks because it should be a celebration, and for me it never is. But i got a rose from zach and a rose from dan, and let me tell you i honestly didn't know what to say. all i could tell them was thank you, but after my monday from hell they will never know how much that really meant to me. so i spent the day eating pizza and candy with liz and watching tv... i guess a normal day.
other than that not much to say. Track is slowly breaking me down. It is sooo hard to go from running amazing in high school... well not amazing but pretty good, to absolutely sucking. i wouldn't mind if i lost every race with the same time i did in high school but i am no where close. i miss being able to run, without pain, and enjoy it, and do it somewhat well. I hate having to finish track meets and pretend like i am doing ok, and i gave it my all, but sit on the bus ride all by myself (Cause marianne left me to hang out with her boyfriend... like all my friends seem to do at some point and time) and just cry. Just think about how hard things must be to make you want to quit one of the things that you love... times that by 10 and thats how horrible i feel right now.
I guess what doesn't kill me makes me stronger... but i should be like the hulk right now
i miss home and i miss being able to relax and have fun.. and i miss having someone to talk too...
it has been like a year since kyle and i broke up, and it seems like such a longer time. how is it fair that he has a girlfriend, allie and mike are happy as always, kelly has a boy, brit has a possible boy, and i'm sitting here typing stupid stuff on my computer... gotta love the curves life throws at you. i guess i should be used to the fact that life isn't fair...
maybe ill just knock on my wall and have zach come over for a booty call... :-p
<3
It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday I didnt know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by
But I will try
I will try wipe the tears from my eyes