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i am trying not to think of you, but you are making is so hard.
and it is totally irrational, totally unexplainable, but fuck you!, i miss you a lot.\
you hate women. which means you hated me. in a weird fucked up way for a while you were my only friend. the one person i had to hold me together and you weren't even here.
it's because i had that dream that you asked me to go to san francisco with you for me and my boyfriend's anniversary, because it was "the right thing to do" you said. and i was so confused but as i looked at you, then looked at my boyfriend, i said yes.
and i felt so fucked up for it.
and it is totally irrational, totally unexplainable, but fuck you!, i miss you a lot.\
you hate women. which means you hated me. in a weird fucked up way for a while you were my only friend. the one person i had to hold me together and you weren't even here.
it's because i had that dream that you asked me to go to san francisco with you for me and my boyfriend's anniversary, because it was "the right thing to do" you said. and i was so confused but as i looked at you, then looked at my boyfriend, i said yes.
and i felt so fucked up for it.