Freaks Come Out
It was a combination of forgetting and not knowing that got me in this situation. I forgot to re-apply for financial aid. I did it last week but there is the possibility that I won't get it on time. So, it comes down to paying the school tuition and waiting for the money to reimburse us or basically be kicked out of school for 2 years. How wonderful to be pipped at the post, right when I start film school.
As if that isn't unnerving enough, Ma is not properly freaking out. For all I know, she is. I don't think the situation is quite clear to her. I don't think she knows that if the school doesn't get paid, I get dropped and can't come back for 2 years. I don't care what anyone says. If I get kicked out, I don't want to go back. I certainly can't afford school now, so when could I possibly afford it? If I did get kicked out, I can hear her right now: "We should've taken out a loan." Right then and there is where I stab her. I'm not even looking for to end of school, having to deal with all the mess of life.
That isn't what hurts so much. What hurts is not being able to come back to film school. After all that I went through to get in, I'll be dropped like a hat. What am I supposed to do? I can't talk to her about it because she'll get mad at me. If she doesn't do something, I'm taking out a bank loan because I refuse to be dropped from school.
As if that isn't unnerving enough, Ma is not properly freaking out. For all I know, she is. I don't think the situation is quite clear to her. I don't think she knows that if the school doesn't get paid, I get dropped and can't come back for 2 years. I don't care what anyone says. If I get kicked out, I don't want to go back. I certainly can't afford school now, so when could I possibly afford it? If I did get kicked out, I can hear her right now: "We should've taken out a loan." Right then and there is where I stab her. I'm not even looking for to end of school, having to deal with all the mess of life.
That isn't what hurts so much. What hurts is not being able to come back to film school. After all that I went through to get in, I'll be dropped like a hat. What am I supposed to do? I can't talk to her about it because she'll get mad at me. If she doesn't do something, I'm taking out a bank loan because I refuse to be dropped from school.