warning: this entry may contain profanity, lots of it...
that being said: I AM SO FUCKING PISSED! and of course i havent had time to calm down and think rationally about the situation yet so right now i'm just going to FUCKING bitch and whine and i dont fucking care...
this has been the goddamn weekend from HELL. at work there were a bunch of shoplifters so of course that put everyone in a foul mood. and that resulted in us all bitching and being short with eachother...FUN FUN!
so then today was sheng's birthday...now apparently tim doesnt know me very well because i was not about to ruin sheng's night by getting into a fight with tim. well apparently tim thought otherwise and decided to bitch about me before i got there. i mean, gee, why should i be mad...he never answers his phone when i call and i know it fucking works. i mean dammit if you dont want to be my fucking friend just FUCKING SAY SO! i dont want to be fucking strung along and then have you bitch behind my back. SAY IT TO MY FUCKING FACE! so i get there and of course he doesnt even say hi to me, in fact we didnt say anything to each other the whole time. and of fucking course i end up having to sit right next to him. and again of course he's being a complete asshole because he just has to sit next to rami so he can sit there and make smart ass comments and bitch about everything that rami happens to say. god dammit he's a fucking asshole! i mean leave things the fuck along, can't you even act civilized for your friend's sake? so finally he moved to one end and i moved farther to the other end. and i had lots of fun sitting with the other ppl in the group and not fucking worrying about tim. it just fucking bugs me that tim has the balls to sit there and fucking make smart ass comments about someone who obviously is a much better person than he is (rami didnt sit there say things about tim). but i think tim fucking likes confrontation...so he tried to start trouble. luckily rami either ignored him or wasnt paying attention. so then when i leave i hear that tim was all like "oh god, megan's coming, she's gonna fight with me because i didnt tell her about the dinner..." and i'm like no i'm not gonna fucking fight with you, i'm more mature than that...and if i was gonna fucking fight with you it wouldnt be because you didnt tell me, i have better friends that invite me to go out... it wasnt his fucking job to tell me so i guess he just wanted to feel important...so FUCK him...JUST FUCKING FUCK HIM. FUCK! i guess i just need to be more careful about who i call a friend cuz he definitely isnt, not anymore, no fucking way. so then i'm driving home all fucking angry and fucking crying and going way too fast and screeching my damn wheels. why do i fucking let him get to me like this....he's not fucking worth it...HE'S SO NOT FUCKING WORTH IT....DAMMIT!
this has been the goddamn weekend from HELL. at work there were a bunch of shoplifters so of course that put everyone in a foul mood. and that resulted in us all bitching and being short with eachother...FUN FUN!
so then today was sheng's birthday...now apparently tim doesnt know me very well because i was not about to ruin sheng's night by getting into a fight with tim. well apparently tim thought otherwise and decided to bitch about me before i got there. i mean, gee, why should i be mad...he never answers his phone when i call and i know it fucking works. i mean dammit if you dont want to be my fucking friend just FUCKING SAY SO! i dont want to be fucking strung along and then have you bitch behind my back. SAY IT TO MY FUCKING FACE! so i get there and of course he doesnt even say hi to me, in fact we didnt say anything to each other the whole time. and of fucking course i end up having to sit right next to him. and again of course he's being a complete asshole because he just has to sit next to rami so he can sit there and make smart ass comments and bitch about everything that rami happens to say. god dammit he's a fucking asshole! i mean leave things the fuck along, can't you even act civilized for your friend's sake? so finally he moved to one end and i moved farther to the other end. and i had lots of fun sitting with the other ppl in the group and not fucking worrying about tim. it just fucking bugs me that tim has the balls to sit there and fucking make smart ass comments about someone who obviously is a much better person than he is (rami didnt sit there say things about tim). but i think tim fucking likes confrontation...so he tried to start trouble. luckily rami either ignored him or wasnt paying attention. so then when i leave i hear that tim was all like "oh god, megan's coming, she's gonna fight with me because i didnt tell her about the dinner..." and i'm like no i'm not gonna fucking fight with you, i'm more mature than that...and if i was gonna fucking fight with you it wouldnt be because you didnt tell me, i have better friends that invite me to go out... it wasnt his fucking job to tell me so i guess he just wanted to feel important...so FUCK him...JUST FUCKING FUCK HIM. FUCK! i guess i just need to be more careful about who i call a friend cuz he definitely isnt, not anymore, no fucking way. so then i'm driving home all fucking angry and fucking crying and going way too fast and screeching my damn wheels. why do i fucking let him get to me like this....he's not fucking worth it...HE'S SO NOT FUCKING WORTH IT....DAMMIT!