reflection time
and now for the reflections, i'm going to have to make this brief because i'm falling asleep here and i still have to wrap some presents for my adorable nephew's 2nd bday tomorrow before i can actually go to bed.
so there were two things that i was thinking about during the trip. one was that as much as i want to let people know that i'm there for them and all, it's very hard to know just how to comfort someone who is upset. like, if someone is visibly distressed, you dont know whether you should say something to them or put your arm around them or what. you dont know how they will react and most of the time you may choose not to do anything because of the fear of their reaction. but in fact there is nothing wrong with trying to comfort someone and letting someone know you care...
and the second thing is that i care way too much about what other people think about me. granted, the people who went on the spring break trip may disagree but i really was a lot more outgoing and goofy than i usually am. i mean i'm never going to see any of those people in the bar again so why does it matter that they saw me singing and dancing around and such. and i'm not exactly sure why i was more outgoing around the habitat people, prolly mostly because they are awesome people and i can be more of myself when i'm around people like that. but even though i still worry about what other people think, i am much better than i was. there was a point in time when i was afraid to make eye contact with people in the mall and such but i'm definitely better than that. and i'm going to stop now because i dont think i'll be able to say anything else coherent...goodnight and happy easter!
so there were two things that i was thinking about during the trip. one was that as much as i want to let people know that i'm there for them and all, it's very hard to know just how to comfort someone who is upset. like, if someone is visibly distressed, you dont know whether you should say something to them or put your arm around them or what. you dont know how they will react and most of the time you may choose not to do anything because of the fear of their reaction. but in fact there is nothing wrong with trying to comfort someone and letting someone know you care...
and the second thing is that i care way too much about what other people think about me. granted, the people who went on the spring break trip may disagree but i really was a lot more outgoing and goofy than i usually am. i mean i'm never going to see any of those people in the bar again so why does it matter that they saw me singing and dancing around and such. and i'm not exactly sure why i was more outgoing around the habitat people, prolly mostly because they are awesome people and i can be more of myself when i'm around people like that. but even though i still worry about what other people think, i am much better than i was. there was a point in time when i was afraid to make eye contact with people in the mall and such but i'm definitely better than that. and i'm going to stop now because i dont think i'll be able to say anything else coherent...goodnight and happy easter!