New Friends are Fun
So, I spent more time with my new Mom-type friend Nicole today. Our babies are 5 days apart. Her son could eat my baby.... He is HUGE! He weighs more, eats more, is longer and looks not unlike a tiny, tiny Samoan warrior.
It has occurred to me to be very, very afraid of my new "schedule" and its impact on me. I'm terrified (illogically of course) that I may never be a good, fun friend to another non-Mom again. I was up with Riley until 5 AM last night. So, we slept in until 12 Noon today and then took a 3 hour nap later too. So, the total of my awake time today was when Graham came home from work for lunch, and then for 3 hours after he was home at night. Then sleep. Sleep like I am dead. Sleep like I haven't rested in YEARS. Sleep like I am in a coma... Then Graham woke me to get me off the couch and go to sleep in our bed, and I am wide awake, and wondering who I can be friends with on a schedule like this... Who is there to see movies with, or talk to about celebrity gossip, or even discuss things NOT Riley-related?
And I miss my husband. A lot. When Graham is at home right now, it is my only chance to really relax and take a shower, or clean up our house or anything that makes me feel like a person. So we are on opposite shifts all the time. We got the luxury of alone time for about 2 hours yesterday night when Riley slept through our dinner time. We took a nap. That is the state of our bonding right now. It SUCKS!!! And I know that Riley will change as he grows, and that every new family goes through the Adult Time Drought, but this is OUR turn, and I'm gonna bitch about it!
It has occurred to me to be very, very afraid of my new "schedule" and its impact on me. I'm terrified (illogically of course) that I may never be a good, fun friend to another non-Mom again. I was up with Riley until 5 AM last night. So, we slept in until 12 Noon today and then took a 3 hour nap later too. So, the total of my awake time today was when Graham came home from work for lunch, and then for 3 hours after he was home at night. Then sleep. Sleep like I am dead. Sleep like I haven't rested in YEARS. Sleep like I am in a coma... Then Graham woke me to get me off the couch and go to sleep in our bed, and I am wide awake, and wondering who I can be friends with on a schedule like this... Who is there to see movies with, or talk to about celebrity gossip, or even discuss things NOT Riley-related?
And I miss my husband. A lot. When Graham is at home right now, it is my only chance to really relax and take a shower, or clean up our house or anything that makes me feel like a person. So we are on opposite shifts all the time. We got the luxury of alone time for about 2 hours yesterday night when Riley slept through our dinner time. We took a nap. That is the state of our bonding right now. It SUCKS!!! And I know that Riley will change as he grows, and that every new family goes through the Adult Time Drought, but this is OUR turn, and I'm gonna bitch about it!