Blarg.
Been writing until about half an hour ago. Then I made dinner for Sarah and her family. It's like being at my dad's, only I get to eat, go into the kitchen whenever I want, and am not afraid for my life. It's very nice.
Did a nice long meditation today. I need to do another one very soon, I'm not in a good state of mind. I'm not in a good state of mind right now. I've been reading a lot of fiction today. Not just angst, but anger. All of the fictions were hugely violent, both here and on FF.N. Not just HIMYM, not just Dr. Horrible. But Harry Potter, 9, Nightmare Before Christmas, Disney...
So right now I'm feeling very violent. VERY violent. I'm not a violent person. Now and again I'll say that I'm mad, that this person or that person should blah blah blah. But I never feel it. I don't like hurting people. But right now, I want to hit something. I'm not angry, I don't have a reason. I just feel like something needs to be hit. With my past, that is NOT a good thing. I seriously need a chill moment, so I'm probably going to get off soon and try to do just that.
But anyway. I ordered the stuff for Ringmaster yesterday, and started making his head today. It's drying now. I painted the hands and feet a base white coat. Why? Because the white clay is now off-white because of my hand oils, so I'm painting them white-white. They are drying too. The hands and feet will get their green tomorrow, and then I'll paint the metal rods for a bit. I'm going to see if I can get orange silk without print so I can start on the jacket too.
Ordered some books off Amazon today too. They were upwards of twenty dollars in the normal bookstores. So I got some used ones for under five online. I can't wait until they come! I want to read my books. They are text books, yes. But they aren't text books. If that makes sense.
Cartooning tomorrow. Should be fun. OH! That reminds me, I need to get up my second comic on Feather Heads. I'll probably do it tomorrow. That'll be the update days I think. Fridays.
Okay, that's it. Bored. I think I'm going to go chill out. Might not. I don't know. I just need to not be around Sarah's family or cats. I keep wanting to kick the cat away from me. I LOVE cats, what is wrong with me?!
Did a nice long meditation today. I need to do another one very soon, I'm not in a good state of mind. I'm not in a good state of mind right now. I've been reading a lot of fiction today. Not just angst, but anger. All of the fictions were hugely violent, both here and on FF.N. Not just HIMYM, not just Dr. Horrible. But Harry Potter, 9, Nightmare Before Christmas, Disney...
So right now I'm feeling very violent. VERY violent. I'm not a violent person. Now and again I'll say that I'm mad, that this person or that person should blah blah blah. But I never feel it. I don't like hurting people. But right now, I want to hit something. I'm not angry, I don't have a reason. I just feel like something needs to be hit. With my past, that is NOT a good thing. I seriously need a chill moment, so I'm probably going to get off soon and try to do just that.
But anyway. I ordered the stuff for Ringmaster yesterday, and started making his head today. It's drying now. I painted the hands and feet a base white coat. Why? Because the white clay is now off-white because of my hand oils, so I'm painting them white-white. They are drying too. The hands and feet will get their green tomorrow, and then I'll paint the metal rods for a bit. I'm going to see if I can get orange silk without print so I can start on the jacket too.
Ordered some books off Amazon today too. They were upwards of twenty dollars in the normal bookstores. So I got some used ones for under five online. I can't wait until they come! I want to read my books. They are text books, yes. But they aren't text books. If that makes sense.
Cartooning tomorrow. Should be fun. OH! That reminds me, I need to get up my second comic on Feather Heads. I'll probably do it tomorrow. That'll be the update days I think. Fridays.
Okay, that's it. Bored. I think I'm going to go chill out. Might not. I don't know. I just need to not be around Sarah's family or cats. I keep wanting to kick the cat away from me. I LOVE cats, what is wrong with me?!