Sunday morning phonecalls always bring the worst sort of news.
My elderly family friend passed away last night in her sleep. Im completely devastated. I spoke of her a lot at the end of 2007, she became ill and had to go into a care home for respite. She then transferred to a care home in St Andrews where she spent the rest of her days. I was very, very close to this lady, especially in the years since my gran died (5 years ago this past Thursday). Daniel and I went to see her last week and she was pretty much fine, your normal 89 year old levels of decline.
Of all the ways to die, that is probably the best and I know that, but god it's a terrible shock. She hasn't been unwell as such. My Mum and I had become aware she had given up on life a little. She was looking forward to our visit today, I told her last week we were bringing the puppy that we're looking after.
This drags up a million feelings from my Gran's death all at the same time and leaves me in a big ball of shock and sadness. My Mum and I appear to handle grief in very different ways. She won't stop talking about this, that or the other, I just want to be extremely silent. She's terribly upset as well, this lady really felt like a family member and lord knows I was closer to her than I am to anyone in my family.
January truly is the worst month of the year.
Of all the ways to die, that is probably the best and I know that, but god it's a terrible shock. She hasn't been unwell as such. My Mum and I had become aware she had given up on life a little. She was looking forward to our visit today, I told her last week we were bringing the puppy that we're looking after.
This drags up a million feelings from my Gran's death all at the same time and leaves me in a big ball of shock and sadness. My Mum and I appear to handle grief in very different ways. She won't stop talking about this, that or the other, I just want to be extremely silent. She's terribly upset as well, this lady really felt like a family member and lord knows I was closer to her than I am to anyone in my family.
January truly is the worst month of the year.