Mental health, and shit
In a twist that I am sure no one saw coming, at all, I get to schedule an appointment to have a full clinical depression screening.
My talky-talky doc gave me a list of referrals to prescribing docs, all of whom are more than willing to look at Behaviour Modification as an alternative to medication, but who will also be honest with me on if they thinks the meds will be helpful, and none of whom appear to be in the back pocket of "Big Pharma"
Honestly, it wasn't shocking to hear this, but unsettling.
After telling my sister for years that there is nothing wrong at all with taking meds to deal with a mental health issue, the idea of ME needing to take meds really throws me for a loop.
My plan, right now, is to keep working wiht Marla on my anxiety issues, and on my communication issues as they pertain to Char, even if he is not seeing her with me. I am also going to talk to her about my choices re: meds, and honestly, I would really like a 'fair' chance at giving exersize and behavior mod a try for a while before the med route is tried. Granted, a big part of exersize and behavior mod working is daily application thereof, and I have a hard enough time eeking out 20 minutes two times a day to do my anti-anxiety routines. Seriously, finding time to prectice anti-anxiety techniques should not be making me anxious.
Even though I know that being on meds will not make me any less of a person, will not make me any worse of a mom, will not.....it's right up there with asking for help. I know that if I need help I should ask, but yet I don't.....
Anyways, that's enough guts spilling ramble from me for right now.
Talk more later
My talky-talky doc gave me a list of referrals to prescribing docs, all of whom are more than willing to look at Behaviour Modification as an alternative to medication, but who will also be honest with me on if they thinks the meds will be helpful, and none of whom appear to be in the back pocket of "Big Pharma"
Honestly, it wasn't shocking to hear this, but unsettling.
After telling my sister for years that there is nothing wrong at all with taking meds to deal with a mental health issue, the idea of ME needing to take meds really throws me for a loop.
My plan, right now, is to keep working wiht Marla on my anxiety issues, and on my communication issues as they pertain to Char, even if he is not seeing her with me. I am also going to talk to her about my choices re: meds, and honestly, I would really like a 'fair' chance at giving exersize and behavior mod a try for a while before the med route is tried. Granted, a big part of exersize and behavior mod working is daily application thereof, and I have a hard enough time eeking out 20 minutes two times a day to do my anti-anxiety routines. Seriously, finding time to prectice anti-anxiety techniques should not be making me anxious.
Even though I know that being on meds will not make me any less of a person, will not make me any worse of a mom, will not.....it's right up there with asking for help. I know that if I need help I should ask, but yet I don't.....
Anyways, that's enough guts spilling ramble from me for right now.
Talk more later