greetings from the land far, far away
So I'm at iHooked Katipunan and I really hate posting in public places because I always feel like people are watching me as I type but then I have nothing to do and I'm sleeping here again tonight because long story short it'll be better than going home late then coming here early again the next day. The thing is though, since this stay was unplanned, I have nothing to do and I haven't really texted other people because I'm really pooped from yesterday and God knows I need some sleep and besides I think all the other fifol are occupied because, I repeat, this night was unplanned.
It's so funny how I feel so conscious as I stalk people online especially in any net shop in Katip. I've learned from living in the south that everyone really does know everyone, one way or another. And I always feel like I'll get caught by someone who knows that person that I'm stalking them and, of course, report back to that person (e.g. "omigod some random girl was looking at your Facebook page at iHooked yesterday!") and I would just die of mortification if that happened.
Anyway, I have funny pictures to follow. Wala lang, random thoughts. Hahahaha. Ang mahal dito. :|
Everyone is breaking up. In the three days that I've been here in the north and caught up with far-away-friends, three couples have broken up. That's three different sad stories and six (i guess) depressed people. Ang bigat, grabe. But most of them are doing fine. It just gets really creepy when this happens because it feels like true end-of-the-world shizza. Hahahaha. It's break-up season indeed.
This season coming around again made me think of the fact that: 1) Next month, I'd have been single for a whole year. And considering this year is a leap year, that'll actually be a whole year and a day! Hahaha. 2) I do not miss the feeling of having relationship drama at all. Srsly. 3) My friends are all strong people, and have somewhat common ways of grieving a heart break. I'm proud of them all and am determined to be there for them no matter how much drama makes me sad. Hahahaha. 5) I'm even more determined to hold on to my singlehood for a while longer. 6) That guy actually has the capacity to put me in that relationshippy place, and what I've been trying for so long to not admit to myself has to be admitted because that's probably the first step to, you know, freedom. As much as that sentence, as run-on as it is, makes me cringe, it is unfortunately true.
So yun. Nakaka-shock lang with all the stories and whatnot all coming in one weekend. I hope all y'allz that are in relationships are happy and thriving, and those who aren't anymore know that it certainly will get better. Believe me. :) In the meantime, I'm just happy to be watching from the sidelines.