before the last hour of my day ends -
In all honesty, even though I was the one who held on to the relationship more, I didn't like the person that I was becoming, being forced by myself, by uncontrolled circumstances, and, on a subconscious level I think, Jason, to change. I've always believed that a relationship shouldn't change you, it should make you grow. If by the end of it, you haven't gotten any more mature emotionally, but you're a whole different person, then something went monumentally wrong. Luckily for me, it was a bit of both. It wasn't all for naught.
I know we may never talk again, and I know that you don't read my LJ right now because it makes things harder for you, but in the hopes that someday when all is well, when we've both properly moved on and are at peace with our lives, I hope you'll know that I learned a lot. And that I've never loved like that before, I didn't know I was capable of it. I hope you're okay. Seriously.
I know we may never talk again, and I know that you don't read my LJ right now because it makes things harder for you, but in the hopes that someday when all is well, when we've both properly moved on and are at peace with our lives, I hope you'll know that I learned a lot. And that I've never loved like that before, I didn't know I was capable of it. I hope you're okay. Seriously.