Dec 27, 2008 23:06
But I feel the need to write. Here goes...It's 11:06, Chris has been in town for a little over a week. I've been sick for almost an entire week...good timing I know. Shaun and Joe drove here from Michigan last night and have been in town all day entertaining chris while I've been fighting off infection and disease. We all went out for pizza down on 45th and Broadway around 6pm, then they all took a two hour nap. Well Chris and Shaun got up and left again around 9:30, Joe is still asleep.
I have had this journal since the beginning of 2002, so next week I will have had it for 7 years....crazy. When I started it I was 16 and now I'm 23, so much has happened, so much has changed. Many of the people have rotated in and out of my life, some are still fixtures holding a long term place, while others have faded away while still others have meerily stepped into the shadows and return from time to time. I am thankful for all the contributions that they have made to this life of mine, for it is they who have helped to shape my existance.
It's funny, because so many of the people who frequently commented on my journal are no longer main characters in my story, or perhaps that is what is suppose to happen in the story of life the characters that support the protagonist change with the chapters. Well If I'm the lone ranger then stephanie is my Tonto and Amanda is my Silver, for I believe they are the two who have lasted as long as this story has and maintained their station within the story. Its funny, because in 2002 they were both only becoming good friends of mine and I can see through these entries their evolution in my life. Also fun is how Mr. Groulx has changed. I don't take it back, and I feel that part of experiencing life is to enjoy the regrets, because they are completely your own to learn from and they provide you wisdom to pass on.
I harbor no ill feelings to those who no longer actively contribute to my life, I wish them well and I miss them. Thats the beauty and the burden of memory. It both brings joy and causes pain. I wish I hadn't destroyed both of my computers in the last year because in truth I'm no good at paper journals...believe me I've tried, I think I have carpul tunnel in both hands cause I cramp up sooo fast. But I am going to try, I am pretty sure that no one checks this, but fuck it, some day I'm going to print these all and bind them, I doubt anyone would publish my ramblings, but it's good to know what your life was, have something to pass on or look back on. Anyway, I'm rambling....out of curiosity, lets do a comparison.
From Jan 2002 and Dec 2008
1.Do you like having your picture taken? yeah, but I hate when my mom takes pictures, it so annoying/yeah except Chris always wants to take photos of buildings and scenary
2.Have you ever done a photo shoot, professional or non? I was suppose to/I did with Dante like 4 years ago and my senior pics were done professionally
3.If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why? I've always wanted to go travel Europe, see all those kewl things there are to see./I'd still like to see Europe, but also Egypt, Kenya, India, China, Japan, Thailand, Australia, Alaska and the rest of the US
5.What would you say is the most daring thing to do in a lifetime? live your life to the fullest and not spend your whole life following the rules and trying to live up to other exceptations./ I still agree with this, except maybe I will try to live up to my expectations.
6.Would you ever do that? yes/I'm trying
7.Have you ever done crossword puzzles? yup/Yeah, but I've been doing Sodoku puzzles for so long now that I have a hard time with the crosswords, different parts of the Brain.
8.Ever actually completed one? a few/Probably 10, I do them like everyday, but I have a short attention span for finishing them
9.Pick up the closest book and write a sentence at random from it? What a nice looking bunch of ducklings you have- all but except that one. Boy, he's really ugly. The really ugly ducking heard these people, but he didn't care. He knew that one day he would probably grow up to be a swan and be bigger and look better than anything in the pond./His form was of the same strong and stalwart contour as ever: his port was still erect, his hair was still reaven-black.
10.Do the same with a lyric from either a cd or the radio? Only in dreams /you see what it means/ reach out your hands/ hold on to her/ but when you wake /its all been erased/ and so it seems/ only in dreams ( Weezer )/I learned that nothing is as pressing as the one whose pressing would like you to believe (bright eyes)
11.Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams? every once in a while/not in like three years, I was beginning to sleep too much when I was severally depressed.
12.Would you put up posters in your room? yes, lots/ Sure if they matched the look I was going for and had meaning to me.
13.Can you sing? uhh no/At Karioke I do, I've been told I have a nice voice, but I know I can't carry a note especially when I'm anxious
14.Do you ever sing to yourself while doing everyday tasks? yeah/fuck yeah, I love to sing for myself
15.What's your favorite color of post-it note? do they come in neon green? I like green maybe pink
16.How many cassette tapes do you own? like 8 I think/ I think I have 3
17.How many cd's do you own? around 100/ Maybe 112 now hahaha
18.Ever bought a cd for just one song? yeah sometimes/Oh yeah...I try to just download singles, but my pc is broke so....oh well
19.What would your perfect day consist of? hanging with my good friends and I don't no it would have to be spontaneous, maybe a road trip somewhere/ Same
20.Have you ever lied to get off the phone or out of talking to someone on line? all the time/somethings don't change
21.Have you ever written a survey? yep/ not since then
22.How about a song? If so share it? yup:
Verse 1: you look at me with a crook in your eye/ what did I do know that makes you wanna cry?/ Was it my cold heart or icy eyes/ I wish right now I die/
Verse2: Every word of mine makes you twitch/ god I'm such a bitch/ I ruined another guys heart/ why am I such a tart
Chorus: But wait its your fault/ you get so annoying/ just shut up/ stop your bitching/ your the reason your fucked up/ I'm leaving this art to the professionals
23.Or maybe a poem? If so share it or one of them? yeah, if you want one just ask me / not a good one, not in a while.
24.Is your vcr flashing 12:00 all the time? no/ no, but I still have one which is the scary part!
25.Do you read your horoscope? occasionally/ I read it every morning that I read the Metro (five days a week), just for fun though;)
26.If so, do you base your day on it? no, I think you can always change the future/ It's still true
27.Would you rather chew gum or use mouthwash and why? both.But I like mints too, little lip shaped cinnimon ones at vs/ I like gum, mouthwash burns and usually has floride in it...bad
28.Do you floss? yep/ yes, but not as often as I should
29.Are you addicted to napster like me? no/ who still has napster?
30.How many times a year about are you sick? not offen, except when i do stupid shit like od on cafeine pills/ Only the few times a year I get a hangover, I usually get a cold once or twice a year and this past week when I've been sick...yeah I think my immune system sucks.
31.Ever been in an airplane? yup/ Soooo many times
32.If so where were you flying to? florida, North Carlina, Washington, and Montana/ In addition, Georgia, NYC, Detroit frequently
33.What radio station to you listen to most? 88.7. I like cds better/ none I have an Ipod
34.What color are your shoes? I have fuzzy pink slippers on right now/ I have on dirty white socks...oxymoron much
35.Was fuzzy wuzzy a bear? nope, he was a alcholic hobo thats why he had no hair and why the rythm sounds like a drunk wrote it/ I concur with 2002 kryssy
36.Do you know how to play dominos? yeah/Chris' dad retaught me and now I forget again:(
37.Or do you think I just mean pizza by that? hmmm pizza/ I don't like dominos pizza
38.Speaking of pizza, what's your favorite kind? pepperoni, mushrooms, onions, green peppers, ham and bread sticks/ Eggplant, extra sauce and cheese or Feta and Spinach yum!
39.What color are your eyes? greyish blue/ that didn't change
40.How many surveys have you filled out this lifetime? a lot/ shit I don't know
41.Describe your bedroom, include all details? Lets see, my bed covered in stuffed animals, my vanity with my cd player, my T.V. and VC on top of my tv stand that has my books and scooby figures on it, my really neat costumized lamp, my dresser, my cat's bed, my garbage, my skateboard, my scooby tree, my Chinchilla cage, my N64, my Cork board, and tons on pics and posters. I'm a pack rat, I don't throw anything away so my room is always neatly cluttered/ I'm getting better on pack rat thing. I have two closets packed with crap, a book case with books, figurines, and photos; my bed, no frame on the floor, Two Domo stuffed animals (thanks to chris), A big window with a catnip plant, a dresser with a tv and dvd player on top and another dresser with my clovers on it.
43.Would you or have you ever shaven your head? never but I want to at least once/ I did once
44.How about someone else's? nope/ I have, Chris
45.Can you do math with ease? GRRR....NO/ Well I took it three times in college, so I kinda can
46.What size is your computer screen? about 13 inches/ I don't know this is Chris'
47.If you could only talk to one person online who would that be? Mike knight or Mike Czechak, maybe Ken/ No one, since I'm never online anymore.
48.Name your favorite type of music and why? i dont have just one. / Same
49.Are you a vegetarian? no / I was for like six months I think I may go back
50.How about an aspiring actor/actress? kinda, but I don't think I'll ever go pro/ I did some plays, It's not for me
51.What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance? Shakespeare, Viven Leigh,lucile ball, audrey hepburn, or Wynona Ryder,ect./ Shakespeare, Thomas Jefferson, Lincoln, Bronte, Virginia Woolf, Van Gogh, Kristen Wiig, Kubrik, Stephen King, Carrie Fisher, pretty much any writer that I've ever read and was impressed by
52.Which movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors? Clueless/ Still can haha...there are many others too though
53.Name one your passions in life? writing/ Still is, Chris
54.What's your least favorite time of day? the morning, nothing happens/ Same its calming when the world is seemingly inactive, I like the night too, but I'm usually up early so I dont' get to enjoy late nights much
55.Who's your favorite member in a band, singer, guiter, bass, drummer, and why? oh the drummer hehe, but the truppet is pretty kewl and they never get any credit. Them and the people who play the harmonica/ I like them all equally, but whoever is writing the songs I would have to say
56.Do you use hairspray or gel? neither, I rarely use products
57.Describe your favorite meal? French oinion soup, steak ( rare ) , and a aweome dessert/ Still French Onion, but instead of a steak I like Green Curry with eggplant and instead of dessert, a nice salad
58.What color is the inside of your head when you close your eyes? red with blue dots surrounded by blackness/ same
59.Ever listen to classical music? sometimes/ same usually when I'm trying to relax or work on school work, it helps me to focus.
60.Have you ever said lol in real life without thinking about it? no, but I say abrevations alot/ same
61.Do you find you use internet language when writing notes? sometimes/ same
62.What songs would be on your ideal cd? too many to fit on just one/ same
63.Say one thing you've learned today? its a snow day/ VH1 decided that adele's "bleeding love" was the number one video of the year. hahaha...I don't know where that came from.
65.What is the best present someone else has ever given to you?my grandma's diary my dad gave it to me for christmas/ Thats still a good one. My mom bought me a snowboard one year, that was pretty badass too.
66.So hey, what's your full name? Krystina Aleese Taylor/ Hasn't changed either
67.Describe yourself while drunk? Floaty, happy, giggling, hornyer than usual, and in a " I love everyone" state of mind/ Floaty, giggly, hornyer than usual, I usually wanna dance and have intense discussions, I also always want food and to do lots of physical exhurtion.
68.How big are the windows in your house? Pretty Big/ They are pretty large for a new york apartment
69.Do you wear a watch? no/ Sometimes, I have a really nice one from tourneau
71.What's the largest age difference between you and someone you've dated? when I was 12 I dated a 15 year old/ five years, it was too much
72.How many mirrors do you have? two, one on my dresser and another on my vanity/ two one in the bathroom and one in my closet.
73.Write one sentence stating what you want people to say about you after you've passed on? she was unique in every way and I really admired her( I don't know )/ She made me feel and in someway made my life more three dimensional
74.Have you ever sailed? yeah/ yeah
75.How fast can you run? hmm, I ran the mile in like 9 minutes, I think/ I don't know, I don't do it often
76.What do you believe in? me :), and my faith/ the force
77.How long does it take you to get ready to go out? not long, about 20minutes, unless its special and I want to look good/ same
78.Do you shower daily? If not how often? yes/ yes usually at night before bed
80.Describe the ideal superpower and what you would do if you had it? xray vision, hehe. well I think I'd use it to see inside things or under clothes/ Well Chris said my xmen power was to forget things, sometimes I wish that my power was to remember more;)
*number 81 escaped*
82.Name something you've done in the last 24hrs no matter how big or small? walked to my friends in the snow/ I went to breakfast and dinner with Chris, Shaun and Joe
83.Do you wear necklaces, bracelets, anklets, earrings. rings? yep, I don't usually wear anklets except in the summer/ I always have an a bar in my left ear (industrial piercing), two earrings in each lobe, a post or ring in my nose, a white gold band on my left ring finger (chris gave me), a clada ring on my right pinky and some sort of neckalace, sometimes I wear something on my wrists.
84.What colors are you wearing right now? white and blue/ Blue, white and grey, haha that's kinda funny
85.How often do you change the sheets on your bed? I dont kow my mom does it/ once every six month, I usually sleep on top of my comforter with a ton of blankets if its cold
86.Have you ever gotten lost? on the way home from the renaissance festival me, eddie, jame, and matt were lost of almost 3 hours. haha../ Amanda and I got lost in the parking lot of Mike and April's wedding reception last month;)
87.What's on your computer desk? my computerand a phone/ Chris' mac is on my lap
88.How many folders are on your desktop at the present moment? dont know/ Chris has four
89.When your talking do you ever use your hands to do quotation marks in the air when saying certain words? haha, yeah/ haha yeah, it's a silly habit
90.Which landmark would you climb if you could? the thing with the faces on it/I would still like to climb mount rushmore;)
91.Do you own or have you read, or thought of reading any self-help books? yup/ haha oh yeah
92.Ever seriously questioned your sanity? on a regular basis/ Everyday, several times
93.Can you break dance? no, but i'd be fun to learn/ ha! I'm not well cordinated
94.What's in your fridge right now? food/ same
95.How many people do you live with? 2. my mom, my bro, my two dogs, my cat, and two chinchillas/ 3 Patti (an irresponsible makeup artist/ waitress), Polly ( A costumer for the ballet/ fashion designer) and Blink my beloved cat
96.Have you or would you ever do anything more than kiss in a public area? oh yeah/ Oh I have
97.What is the strangest thing you've ever done? I sometimes cry for no apparent reason( it sucks ) and sometimes I talk in third person or call people by names that aren't theirs, or talk to myself, or......../ still do all of the above among other things.
98.Name an instrument you've never played but would like to? the bass and the harmonica/ bag pipes
99.Have you ever been on tv or the radio? nope, but I've been in the newspaper/ Nope
100.What is the worst thing anyone could ever do to you? lie/ agreed
101.Are you a fast typer? sometimes/ depends on what I'm typing, I'd say I'm average
102.How high have you counted before getting bored? can't remember, I don't usually count for fun/ same
103.Describe how you sleep. on my back with my stuffed animal and my cat next to me. Sometimes I have music on or forget to shut off my tv/ Usually on my back with my cat next to me;) unless chris is here, then we spoon:)
104.Are you straight, bi, gay? straight/ I don't believe in such titles, but I'm with a man now and have never been romantically involved with a woman save for amanda;)
105.Do you ever do something else while on the computer? If so what? listen to music or talk on the phone/ watch tv, talk on phone listen to music
106.What is the most expensive item you own? everything, because to me its all priceless/ same, except things are replaceable, it is the people in my life who are priceless.
107.How about the least expensive? the useless posters everywhere/idk, I'd have to think about that.
108.What's your favorite card game to play? tarot/ circle of death!
109.What do you do online? chat, check my email, and write in lj, order clothes, look up info on people and bands/ check my email, go on facebook or myspace to see what others are up to, do research for school, sometimes I blackle things that make me curious.
110.Name some stores you've bought clothes in before? hot topic, contempo, pacsun, gadzooks/ Express, YRB, Steve and Barry's, JJay student store.
111.Have you ever read a book and not understood it? If so which one? school books and the bible and most Charles Dickins books like great exceptations, or Walden ( god I hated that book, it made me want to slit my wrists)/ I get those all now, except the bible, that will always be an enigma.
112.Have you ever watched a movie and not understood it? If so which one? lots of movies are hard to understand, like scary movies where the victims do the stupidest things and your like " what the hell?????"/ Same, I really didn't understand Ethan Hawke's "Hamlet 2000," but it was more from a cinematographers perspective.
113.Do people pick up your slang language more than you pick up theres? sometimes, I try to be original, but I say other peoples sayings a lot/ same
114.Are you easily influenced by other people, or currant trends? no, not really/ I try not to be, but I am a human
115.What makes you unique in your own opinion? everything/ I'm human, there are bound to be unique qualities in me.
116.Name your worst quality? stubborn/ stubborn with a bad temper, I have mood swings...its true
117.Name your best? hmmm, idk, you tell me/ I'm kind, I'm forgiving and I'm empathetic
118.What would you like to do with your life? go to new york, become a better wiccan, and own my own coffee shop or bar or night club or book shop/ Well I'm in NYC, check. I don't want to be a wiccan or own anything. I want tot travel, be with Chris, spend as much time as I can with those I love and enjoy my life to its fullest.
119.Do you blow dry your hair? yeah/ sometimes, I have a straightener if I don't
120.How many clocks are in your house? I think about 5/ 4 that I know of
121.Are they all set on the same time? no/ they should they are all digital
122.Have you ever intentionally set a clock ahead or behind the actual time? yeah to mess with my mom's head, hehe/ I tried to trick myself, it didn't work.
123.What do you think about when you first wake up in the morning? where am I? am I still asleep? do I have to go to school today? what is today? do I have anything important to do? did I shower last night? where is blink? whats that noise? what time is it? where is everyone? is it cold out? what to wear? should I curl my hair? why do I care so much about this?/ I don't ask so many questions anymore, I prepare the night before. Now I just hit snooze a hundred times and groan about having to get up.
124.Which browser do you use? idk/ firefox
125.Do you bite your nails? sometimes when they break/ not as much as I used to
126.Would you ever leave little notes to your gf/bf? yep I would/ I haven't lately, but I'm in a long distance relationship so it's kinda hard, I snail mail him though.
127.Ever been to a farm? lots of times/ same
129.Ever seen a shooting star? haileys comet? yeah shooting stars/ not so many stars in the city
130.Say one thing about yourself you've never told anyone. I'm really self concious/ I drool in my sleep, I didn't tell Chris that, he told me.
131.Do your days fly by or seem to last forever? both/same
132.Have you ever stayed in a fancy high class rich hotel? yeah/ not recently
133.Have you ever stayed in a rent-by-the-hour motel? no/ yes, it wasn't what you think though
134.What in your opinion is the best advertising slogan out there? got milk?/ those damn amex surveys always make me smile cause Ellen is on them
135.When they start sending rockets to the moon for us civilians, will you be on the list to go? yeah, but I'd live here still/ If I could afford to go I'd like to
136.How are you feeling right now? kinda tired/ same
137.Have you ever written anything on your skin? yeah/ oh yeah, its the best way to remind myself of something
138.If so what? phone #s, reminders/ same
139.Which website do you frequent most often? livejournal, hot topic/ facebook, myspace, yahoo, blackle, youtube, jjay.edu
140.What color is most of your clothes? red, black, blue, green, pink/ green, black, blue
141.Do you own any plants? I'd like some, but there isn't any room in my room, but I do have a fake x-mas tree in there/ I have two clover plants, a catnip plant, a rose bush and a basil plant.
142.Are things as bad as they seem? never/ in my head they are, but not in reality
143.Descibe the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you? skipped work and spent the night at my house with me when I was sick, walk to my house in the snow/ Come all the way to NYC to ask me out.
144.Ever looked directly at the sun? yeah/yeah
145.Have you ever made a pin hole camera to watch the eclipse? no/ no
146.What's your favorite cereal? banana nut crunch and french toast crunch oh and frosted flake and frosted cherrios/ mmm banana nut crunch
147.Who do you miss? everyone back home
150.Say something else about yourself you've never told anyone before. I cry a lot/ I miss who I was
Well that was an interesting experiment. Now I have to go to bed. I will be back.