Nov 27, 2009 22:56
I seem to be more smiley of late. It feels good to smile.
Even if things are kind of "off" and the light at the end of the tunnel seems a lot farther away than I'd like it to be I seem happier than I was 3 months ago, I'm certainly happier than I was 10 months ago and I'm likely far, far different than I was this time last June.
I have started laughing again, I laugh at home, I laugh in public, I probably laugh when it's not appropriate. I'm sure I laugh when it's not appropriate.
I have started to be told that I'm loud again.... yes I'm loud. I'm OK with that.
It's one of my charms?
I have a lot to do, but I don't feel so overwhelmed by it. It all almost seems manageable.
Now if only I had a million dollars.
I can feel me creeping back into me.
It's like a slow burn, it's there like an ember it just needs fanning to become a fire again.