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so there's a little glass on the road... makes my tire flat... all i have to do is fix it, right? well, i can't fix it alone... someone has to help me... it's a team effort...
metaphor for kev and me having a little bit of trouble in paradise...
long story, don't wanna get into it...
but we've been dating for 6 months and this is the first problem that we've had... and i don't even wanna call it a problem... just a roadblock of some sort... but we'll fix it... i mean, we've had little things, but they blew over really quickly and we didn't even bring it up with eachother... but this is different...
at least i told him what was bothering me, right? i usually keep everything inside til it explodes... well, it's been bugging me all weekend and i haven't been able to study for my 3 tests and a quiz that i have this week... well, a test and a quiz tomorrow is all i was really gonna study for... and usually i don't have the motivation... but i was gonna make myself do it... then i couldn't... i was too upset... and i could hardly eat anything this weekend, either... which if u know me, is INCREDIBLY bad... lol u KNOW i'm upset if i can't eat... i seriously wanna talk to one of my professors and ask if i can postpone this test because of a nervous breakdown... which i have been on the verge of for about a week or so... i don't know what's going on, and that scares me...
the worst thing is, he thinks it's all his fault... but it's not... i tried to tell him that, but he doesn't believe it... but i really love him and now i made him feel bad... he's upset for making me upset when it's not all his fault... it's a 2-way street... and i feel terrible for making him feel bad about the situation... but the problem that was bugging me was buging him, too... so at least we're on the same wavelength... and he didn't say anything to me cuz he didn't wanna upset me...
i think everything will work out... i hope... i love him too much to let him go... we'll figure something out... hopefully...
good news... NO TESTS NEXT WEEK!!!!!!! that's the only week the whole semester... it wasn't supposed to be that way, but 2 of my profs changed their schedules (1 of which gives 1 - 2 quizzes a week, but no tests... so the quizzes ARE the tests...) so yay!!
well, i'm gonna try to get some sleep so maybe i can wake up and study... o man, this is gonna be a long week... and i'm exhausted... both physicall and emotionally...
leave some love... i need it right now...
~*K8*~
p.s. i know that kev doesn't read this, but i don't wanna put details here... if by chance he does read it, he'll know how i feel about him...
metaphor for kev and me having a little bit of trouble in paradise...
long story, don't wanna get into it...
but we've been dating for 6 months and this is the first problem that we've had... and i don't even wanna call it a problem... just a roadblock of some sort... but we'll fix it... i mean, we've had little things, but they blew over really quickly and we didn't even bring it up with eachother... but this is different...
at least i told him what was bothering me, right? i usually keep everything inside til it explodes... well, it's been bugging me all weekend and i haven't been able to study for my 3 tests and a quiz that i have this week... well, a test and a quiz tomorrow is all i was really gonna study for... and usually i don't have the motivation... but i was gonna make myself do it... then i couldn't... i was too upset... and i could hardly eat anything this weekend, either... which if u know me, is INCREDIBLY bad... lol u KNOW i'm upset if i can't eat... i seriously wanna talk to one of my professors and ask if i can postpone this test because of a nervous breakdown... which i have been on the verge of for about a week or so... i don't know what's going on, and that scares me...
the worst thing is, he thinks it's all his fault... but it's not... i tried to tell him that, but he doesn't believe it... but i really love him and now i made him feel bad... he's upset for making me upset when it's not all his fault... it's a 2-way street... and i feel terrible for making him feel bad about the situation... but the problem that was bugging me was buging him, too... so at least we're on the same wavelength... and he didn't say anything to me cuz he didn't wanna upset me...
i think everything will work out... i hope... i love him too much to let him go... we'll figure something out... hopefully...
good news... NO TESTS NEXT WEEK!!!!!!! that's the only week the whole semester... it wasn't supposed to be that way, but 2 of my profs changed their schedules (1 of which gives 1 - 2 quizzes a week, but no tests... so the quizzes ARE the tests...) so yay!!
well, i'm gonna try to get some sleep so maybe i can wake up and study... o man, this is gonna be a long week... and i'm exhausted... both physicall and emotionally...
leave some love... i need it right now...
~*K8*~
p.s. i know that kev doesn't read this, but i don't wanna put details here... if by chance he does read it, he'll know how i feel about him...