Ohio part 2
So part 1 left off w/my sister. And I hardly mentioned Jackson, I'm a bad Aunt. He's a bouncy baby. It was really hard to keep a hold of him. I got there, met him for the first time- held him and he promptly spit up on my twice. That was freakin awesome. NOT! Sara is stellar like usual. I dont know what she gets to be the beautiful one. I feel bad bc she says she's always been told she's the pretty one, and Amanda gets told she's the smart one or nothing at all. :-(
From Charleston we tried to find Fort Mill NC. We did and it was a cute lil town, but now where's the baseball game? In another town a couple miles up, so we didn't follow directions and finally got there. People are leaving, and I swear some are carrying loafs of bread. I dunno what's up. The ticket counter was closed. I took the cat for a walk on her leash. Ended up w/ ants crawling ALL OVER MY FEET AND JEANS. I ran back into the car, threw the cat in and stripped off my pants- and threw them outside. It was soo painful. Luckily I had been bitten at the marathon his parents did- and have since then been carrying this anti itch stuff around in my bag. I slathered that on and kept doing so for a while. I still have some of the welts from where they bit me. Meanwhile Ralph shook out my pants and inspected them for me. We took off, ending up at a Jack in the box b'c I LOVE THAT PLACE! Egg rolls and tacos in one place, what could be better? Then we went all over SC and NC looking for this movie theater, finally found it and went and saw Clerks 2. It was so random and just what I had been needing from him and this relationship. It really helped a lot of the stress just melt away.
Driving through the mountains was fun, much better than the ones on the way to STL. We got to take a couple tunnels THRU the Mnt. The fog was HORRIBLE though. It was so dark that sometimes the road just disappeared, literally. Or the sharp turns in the fog, trying not to fly off a cliff or hit a semi. Ralph did all the driving thru this part. I couldn't stay awake during some parts, I was just so exhausted. And I got so sleep deprived that he had to keep driving past when he wanted to b'c I couldn't wake up. Turns out I really just needed to get out, walk around, eat something kinda thing. But I would wake up, say a couple words and pass out. We had breakfast in a burger king, that was disgusting beyong comprehension and drove another 30min to our apt complex.
Our apt is fantastic. Some much bigger, better, nicer than our last place, and only slightly more expensive. It's so nice to have real floors and CARPET. Dishwashers are fantastic, it's great to be out of the ice age again. Walk in closets and private balconies- it's a girls dream come true. All I need is a picket fence. O wait, that's the last place.
We go into the office, sign our paper work, take a tour and see the apt for the first time. The layout is different than the website, and the one Ralph toured- it's so much better I think. We immediately pass out on a palet on the floor and sleep for a few hours. We late get a car load of stuff from our trailer a few cities away- it was really hard finding the place, but that's b'c someone didn't go by directions. Anywho, we unload and I dont remember what we did our first night here....We think we went to the mexican place across the street. I dunno. Next day we get our uhaul, load it up and come back. We pass out on the floor. Finally and I do mean FINALLY our roommate shows up- w/some dude he doesn't introduce. We assume it's the gf's dad. Our roommate- who previously had barely enough to furnish his own room, show's up w/a Uhaul almost the same size as ours. He looks at the apt, asks Ralph about the rent b'c "there's 3 people living here". He leaves to pressumably go sign the lease. Hours later we still haven't seen him. We unload all our furniture and go about doing our own thing. Eventually we ask mgmt and they say that he acted like it wasn't what he thought it was gonna be, especially w/the rent. LIKE OMG HE KNEW EVERYTHING! FROM THE GET GO! Ralph told him it was 2 of us, he told him the price of rent, everything- any tiny little detail. It's more than a week later and still no word from the guy. Since then I've ran into the girl and the guy that almost moved in w/us before, they didn't introduce themselves, and I was nice-b/c I didn't know it was them. Ralph knew like right away, and I thought the girl was her, but I wasn't sure until later. They haven't really talked to us. Only 1 person offered to help us move- he and his gf were headed out, and we could manage that load but we thanked him kindly. There's been a whole bunch of random shit that's gone wrong. I got really upset and depressed. I crawled around and hated myself b'c I knew the only explanation could be me. But then I remembered what Sara said, on a totally unrelated topic- but one that's made me feel this way for my entire life-
It is not your fault. You did nothing wrong to deserve this.
And writing this now, I can't remember all the bad things anymore. And I dont want to sit and remember them- as they start to come back in, especially after today's shitty ass day. (like Ralph possibly being screwed over the truck situation) And if you've actually read this all, you should comment and get a cookie.
The good news is that I'm sending in applications, Ralph's all ready for school and such. We've had some good experiences and we are trying to go out and meet people, which is like impossible. The closest I've come is this woman I ran into 2xs downstairs, and Sara(h) the bartender at Brubakers. We went and did this mock trial thing for the law school this morning. Unpaid, which sucks, but it was fun listening to people make their case, and getting to kinda evaluate them- they listened to us deliberate, so got to hear what flaws and strong points we mentioned. It was a lot of fun. Ralph and I have a bank account together and even though there isn't much money in there and times are about to get really hard, it's kinda nice to think about the big steps in the world. I have checks for the first time in my life, even though I've had an account since I was in elem. school. I may even be grateful for that last year in St Pete. Not being very closing and losing people every time I turn around, made it so much easier to do this. It's also a million times better that STL b'c I'm not alone. I dont have an absent roommate. I dont have an abusive bf. Im not completely depressed, having to put on a face to people I never wanted to lie to in my life. This place looks a lot like my 2 fav cities- it's nice, we have a great view, especially for sunsets. And yes, there is a fantastic view even if you aren't on the warm brown sand. I feel kinda like I'm the person I wanted to be, or I'm on my way to being that person. And even though I'm sad and lonely sometimes, I haven't packed my bags yet. I'm trying. I'm trying.
From Charleston we tried to find Fort Mill NC. We did and it was a cute lil town, but now where's the baseball game? In another town a couple miles up, so we didn't follow directions and finally got there. People are leaving, and I swear some are carrying loafs of bread. I dunno what's up. The ticket counter was closed. I took the cat for a walk on her leash. Ended up w/ ants crawling ALL OVER MY FEET AND JEANS. I ran back into the car, threw the cat in and stripped off my pants- and threw them outside. It was soo painful. Luckily I had been bitten at the marathon his parents did- and have since then been carrying this anti itch stuff around in my bag. I slathered that on and kept doing so for a while. I still have some of the welts from where they bit me. Meanwhile Ralph shook out my pants and inspected them for me. We took off, ending up at a Jack in the box b'c I LOVE THAT PLACE! Egg rolls and tacos in one place, what could be better? Then we went all over SC and NC looking for this movie theater, finally found it and went and saw Clerks 2. It was so random and just what I had been needing from him and this relationship. It really helped a lot of the stress just melt away.
Driving through the mountains was fun, much better than the ones on the way to STL. We got to take a couple tunnels THRU the Mnt. The fog was HORRIBLE though. It was so dark that sometimes the road just disappeared, literally. Or the sharp turns in the fog, trying not to fly off a cliff or hit a semi. Ralph did all the driving thru this part. I couldn't stay awake during some parts, I was just so exhausted. And I got so sleep deprived that he had to keep driving past when he wanted to b'c I couldn't wake up. Turns out I really just needed to get out, walk around, eat something kinda thing. But I would wake up, say a couple words and pass out. We had breakfast in a burger king, that was disgusting beyong comprehension and drove another 30min to our apt complex.
Our apt is fantastic. Some much bigger, better, nicer than our last place, and only slightly more expensive. It's so nice to have real floors and CARPET. Dishwashers are fantastic, it's great to be out of the ice age again. Walk in closets and private balconies- it's a girls dream come true. All I need is a picket fence. O wait, that's the last place.
We go into the office, sign our paper work, take a tour and see the apt for the first time. The layout is different than the website, and the one Ralph toured- it's so much better I think. We immediately pass out on a palet on the floor and sleep for a few hours. We late get a car load of stuff from our trailer a few cities away- it was really hard finding the place, but that's b'c someone didn't go by directions. Anywho, we unload and I dont remember what we did our first night here....We think we went to the mexican place across the street. I dunno. Next day we get our uhaul, load it up and come back. We pass out on the floor. Finally and I do mean FINALLY our roommate shows up- w/some dude he doesn't introduce. We assume it's the gf's dad. Our roommate- who previously had barely enough to furnish his own room, show's up w/a Uhaul almost the same size as ours. He looks at the apt, asks Ralph about the rent b'c "there's 3 people living here". He leaves to pressumably go sign the lease. Hours later we still haven't seen him. We unload all our furniture and go about doing our own thing. Eventually we ask mgmt and they say that he acted like it wasn't what he thought it was gonna be, especially w/the rent. LIKE OMG HE KNEW EVERYTHING! FROM THE GET GO! Ralph told him it was 2 of us, he told him the price of rent, everything- any tiny little detail. It's more than a week later and still no word from the guy. Since then I've ran into the girl and the guy that almost moved in w/us before, they didn't introduce themselves, and I was nice-b/c I didn't know it was them. Ralph knew like right away, and I thought the girl was her, but I wasn't sure until later. They haven't really talked to us. Only 1 person offered to help us move- he and his gf were headed out, and we could manage that load but we thanked him kindly. There's been a whole bunch of random shit that's gone wrong. I got really upset and depressed. I crawled around and hated myself b'c I knew the only explanation could be me. But then I remembered what Sara said, on a totally unrelated topic- but one that's made me feel this way for my entire life-
It is not your fault. You did nothing wrong to deserve this.
And writing this now, I can't remember all the bad things anymore. And I dont want to sit and remember them- as they start to come back in, especially after today's shitty ass day. (like Ralph possibly being screwed over the truck situation) And if you've actually read this all, you should comment and get a cookie.
The good news is that I'm sending in applications, Ralph's all ready for school and such. We've had some good experiences and we are trying to go out and meet people, which is like impossible. The closest I've come is this woman I ran into 2xs downstairs, and Sara(h) the bartender at Brubakers. We went and did this mock trial thing for the law school this morning. Unpaid, which sucks, but it was fun listening to people make their case, and getting to kinda evaluate them- they listened to us deliberate, so got to hear what flaws and strong points we mentioned. It was a lot of fun. Ralph and I have a bank account together and even though there isn't much money in there and times are about to get really hard, it's kinda nice to think about the big steps in the world. I have checks for the first time in my life, even though I've had an account since I was in elem. school. I may even be grateful for that last year in St Pete. Not being very closing and losing people every time I turn around, made it so much easier to do this. It's also a million times better that STL b'c I'm not alone. I dont have an absent roommate. I dont have an abusive bf. Im not completely depressed, having to put on a face to people I never wanted to lie to in my life. This place looks a lot like my 2 fav cities- it's nice, we have a great view, especially for sunsets. And yes, there is a fantastic view even if you aren't on the warm brown sand. I feel kinda like I'm the person I wanted to be, or I'm on my way to being that person. And even though I'm sad and lonely sometimes, I haven't packed my bags yet. I'm trying. I'm trying.