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[msjcane]

almighty me
beaming false smiles
crying real tears -
don't you know its all a lie?
every smile i send your way is truly just a
frown that blankets the tears.
grown woman just pretending to be.
help me - don't
ignore these screams.
jumping isn't an option.
keeping you here isn't either.
loving you remains an absolute no.
me, isn't that what its supposed to be about?
no one gets me like me.
over time i'll let this all fly away -
preventing these feelings,
quartining my heart,
rounding up the sorrow,
shouting out your lies,
touching your face,
uttering my heart,
vile fear -
wishing it wasn't this way
xing out your name in my subconscious -
you lied,
zereoed in on my weakness -

your existence ruins my life