Sep 11, 2005 23:07
some carrie bradshaw-esque comments....
"as i strolled the streets of laguna beach, i couldn't help but wonder...was i the ONLY single person in orange county??"
"as i sat at home alone chatting online to a couple girlfriends, i couldn't help but wonder...why is it that people judge their own personal character, looks, and validity by the amount of members of the opposite (or same in some cases) sex who show interest in them?"
it seems like every time something goes wrong with a somebody we show interest in, we automatically come to the conclusion that the root of the problem is that we are hanusly unattractive, or ridiculously uninteresting. i know i do this a lot. and while yes, oftentimes this is the problem with me, sometimes maybe its the other person who has a problem. i always say i want to try to think more positively about things like this, although a lot of times it doesnt necessarily seem to help. i think it also has to do with the culmination of a lot of people/situations bothering me today that i also assume could be the result of me being uninteresting or unattractive. i need to try to have a little more self-confidence...although it varies from day to day.
the other night me and sarah met some southern guys in the hot tub. they moved here 4 months ago from louisiana, and it completely baffled me that they didn't really seem to show any concern about the hurricane. it was interesting hearing their stories about where they were from, and kind of bizarre listening to their perceptions about california. they seemed to believe that everybody living in this state is very wealthy, and i guess thats why they came here because there is more money to be made here. in the community that i grew up in, uci is nothing too impressive compared to the many ivy leagues and other private schools that people attend, but to these guys, uci was like really amazing. it was funny telling them how, while in southern california its pretty sunny most of the time, in san francisco, its lucky to have a sunny day during the summer haha, i dont think they believed me though. i've never really been the type to swoon over a southern accent, but there was something about them that was just so friendly...they weren't just some creepy older guys in a hot tub trying to pick up anything in a bikini. i really do enjoy meeting new people, when they actually want to talk, that is.
anyways, random post...maybe things will go better for all of us tomorrow.