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theres a bunch of things going on right now that im not real happy about. some i'll talk about, some i wont :/
i feel like little things just make me so mad lately. thigns i SHOULDNT be mad about. some of those things dont matter (well, can't really matter) anymore, like the entire dan situation. . . but its almost worse now because we're not together. another thing that gets to me and i dont know whyyyyy, is jill and brad the hooker. i mean, obviously that has no effect on me, but i just dont really like it and i dont know why. honestly, i dont REALLY care that she totally led my neighbor brad on to believe that she really liked him and was all into him and would be here for when he gets back, but that does bug me a tiny bit. even if he wasnt my neighbor and friend from birth, i just dont think thats right. she didnt make any promises, but she did a whole lot of leading to believe. . . .but so with hooker brad, she kept saying how annoying and persistant he was and how she told him a million times that she wasnt interested, yet she goes out with him all the time, and he goes to her house ALL THE TIME. i just called, at almost 9 on a sunday night, and hes at her house playing cards with her, her parents, her brothers, and her grandma. okay, i know brad, and to be honest im not toooooo too fond of the kid, and jills one of my best friends annndddd that sucks. i feel like shes almost hiding it from me because she knows i dont really like him, and i hate that. why cant people just be as honest and open about everything as i am to them :( at least people i care about anyways. i know alot more than these people suspect i do, im not dumb, i can figure things out. im not even that excited about florida because i've been in such a bad mood and i dont want to just bitch and moan all week. but jills such a reminder of so much that has to do with what i tend to bitch and moan about. . .
thats all that im going to talk about that bugging me lately, but theres so much more. . .
wierd - i saw sarah murphy, baby, and baby's daddy at applebees tonight when i went out with my sister. so wierd.
run was awesome today. i finally ran a road race! made my best time too, like 3 minutes faster than a usually good day!! 41:22 and i was hoping for 45 at the least.
wow, i really hate this funk. what i hate even more is not talking to dan. . not knowing anything. . and hes going to be back in walpole in a week :(. . . .
hate this.
so i know this is going to make this not make any sense because i ended up saying it anyways, but i ran into russ the other day and that wasnt even something i wrote in my update. well, now i did, but for that purpose only. if only dan knew :/
i feel like little things just make me so mad lately. thigns i SHOULDNT be mad about. some of those things dont matter (well, can't really matter) anymore, like the entire dan situation. . . but its almost worse now because we're not together. another thing that gets to me and i dont know whyyyyy, is jill and brad the hooker. i mean, obviously that has no effect on me, but i just dont really like it and i dont know why. honestly, i dont REALLY care that she totally led my neighbor brad on to believe that she really liked him and was all into him and would be here for when he gets back, but that does bug me a tiny bit. even if he wasnt my neighbor and friend from birth, i just dont think thats right. she didnt make any promises, but she did a whole lot of leading to believe. . . .but so with hooker brad, she kept saying how annoying and persistant he was and how she told him a million times that she wasnt interested, yet she goes out with him all the time, and he goes to her house ALL THE TIME. i just called, at almost 9 on a sunday night, and hes at her house playing cards with her, her parents, her brothers, and her grandma. okay, i know brad, and to be honest im not toooooo too fond of the kid, and jills one of my best friends annndddd that sucks. i feel like shes almost hiding it from me because she knows i dont really like him, and i hate that. why cant people just be as honest and open about everything as i am to them :( at least people i care about anyways. i know alot more than these people suspect i do, im not dumb, i can figure things out. im not even that excited about florida because i've been in such a bad mood and i dont want to just bitch and moan all week. but jills such a reminder of so much that has to do with what i tend to bitch and moan about. . .
thats all that im going to talk about that bugging me lately, but theres so much more. . .
wierd - i saw sarah murphy, baby, and baby's daddy at applebees tonight when i went out with my sister. so wierd.
run was awesome today. i finally ran a road race! made my best time too, like 3 minutes faster than a usually good day!! 41:22 and i was hoping for 45 at the least.
wow, i really hate this funk. what i hate even more is not talking to dan. . not knowing anything. . and hes going to be back in walpole in a week :(. . . .
hate this.
so i know this is going to make this not make any sense because i ended up saying it anyways, but i ran into russ the other day and that wasnt even something i wrote in my update. well, now i did, but for that purpose only. if only dan knew :/