grrrr
So tonight I went over to my sisters house. My sis is about 3 weeks out to having her second son. So we are all sitting around talking. Pat tells my brother in law "ask Brandee about being pregnant" Rob says "why" and pat replies "I wonder if I will ever have kids." I merely reply "I am not ready." Then my sister goes off telling me house hard it is to have kids after thirty and so on. My God, how hard is it to get through to everyone that I am not READY. I may be 28, but I just now know who I am and what I want to do with my life. I am not ready to give it all up to be the little wife and mom. I know what I will be doing for the rest of my life if I give in. Work, come home, feed the husband, feed the kids, clean house, wash the kids, do everything then get up and do the whole freakin thing over again. Never mind that I have dreams that I want to accomplish. I want to travel and see the world. I want to get my degree. I can't do that with kids. But everyone else seems to know what is best for me. I must be too stupid to know. God it just pisses me off.