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I want you to want me,
I need you to need me....
And I just wish everything could be alright, and I could have you back. I keep trying, but trying doesn't always seem to work. I want to give up, but I don't want to at the same time. Giving up always seems to be the easy wasy out. I don't want the easy way out. I just want to somehow start over, somehow try and forgive and hopefully forget. I can't help how I feel. I try and I try, and it doesn't seem to be enough. I just want you to want me, and I want you back. I miss how we'd just lay down and watch tv together, and how we'd always pick on eachother. Maybe I just picked on you more than you picked on me. LOL I miss just being with you, not just seeing you and hanging out, actually being together, boyfriend and girlfriend. Its a new month, maybe this month somehow could be better or well hopefully be better than last month. I care about you so much, and just want to make things right. Don't know if you'd read this or not. I actually somehow can tell you things more than I could before. Its hard for me to tell people things, and express how I feel at times. Especially when I am sad or mad, I just like to keep it to myself. Blah... just thought i'd write in here since I never seem to. Anyways, I guess i'll write more later. I had written a whole fucking long page but it got deleted. GRRR.