sorry for the lack of updates...
Sorry for the lack of updates things have been getting more and more fucked up as the weeks go by. I can't fucking take this shit anymore. Word is bond...I'm fucking just trying to survive. I'm trying to live. Sleeping in abandoned buildings in Paterson and the bronx. No more drugs been sober for about 3 months but man I wish I was fucked up beyond belief right now jst to escape this bull shit that my life seems to be surounded by. I feel like just fucking smashing people up right now. for real. I'm gonna put these mother fuckers on blast right now for real. All these white fuckin wiggers in this new school are fucking wit me...someone's about to get jumped. For real. I'm not fighting because I think I'm tough I'm trying to survive. Nobody will understand my life right now...alll the shelters, family problems being forced to take medication that I don't like, otherwise i'm getting sent to a hospital and they're injecting it in me!!! Yo...my head is spinning!!!
Now here's the new bull shit in my life...This girl was talkin shit so I told her she'd better watch abou that gossip shit because it comes up and bites you in the ass...now...because I stated my opinion I'm gonna go to an even more special school...NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELL FUCKIN NO!!!!!! If I go there...(which they're sending me for sure) Someone's gonna get hit...I don't give a fuck what the cosequences are. I am so fucking heated right now!!! Man...I did worse shit last year. I snoted e in the in-school suspension room, I smked up in the school 4x...I was bad!!! When I have a blunt in my ass send me away for that. on't waste my time with none of this.
I can't fucking take this shit anymore. If I have to deal with this shit anymore...I'm gone and I will suceed this time. I've been with bloods and all kinds of gang members...and if you're gonna send me away for stating an opinion...Someone's gonna get hurt for real. I'm so sick of this life that I've been living. I don't wanna live like this anymore.
Man, I'm so sick of this I prayed to god...I prayed to god. And I told him. I was so much worse last year...why am I in trouble for this? Why? If you blessed me with this gift why can't I suceed? I don't wanna live like this anymore. I've been fighting for so long, I could have been dead so many times, why am I not dead yet?
I don't kno how much more of this I can take...Man, someone's about to get jumped for real...They send me to these places to try and help me but it's only made me angrier and more withdrawn to people, and all I learned was how to fight.
I'm not trying to be like I was last year, I'm trying to get out of all of this, and the more I try the deeper I go. I don't wanna live like this anymore. I don't wanna be in jail of be a prostitute by the time I'm 17...but the more I open my eyes that seems to be whre I'm going...
Man...I'm out. If I don't update for a while, I got sent away to a more special school.
Now here's the new bull shit in my life...This girl was talkin shit so I told her she'd better watch abou that gossip shit because it comes up and bites you in the ass...now...because I stated my opinion I'm gonna go to an even more special school...NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELL FUCKIN NO!!!!!! If I go there...(which they're sending me for sure) Someone's gonna get hit...I don't give a fuck what the cosequences are. I am so fucking heated right now!!! Man...I did worse shit last year. I snoted e in the in-school suspension room, I smked up in the school 4x...I was bad!!! When I have a blunt in my ass send me away for that. on't waste my time with none of this.
I can't fucking take this shit anymore. If I have to deal with this shit anymore...I'm gone and I will suceed this time. I've been with bloods and all kinds of gang members...and if you're gonna send me away for stating an opinion...Someone's gonna get hurt for real. I'm so sick of this life that I've been living. I don't wanna live like this anymore.
Man, I'm so sick of this I prayed to god...I prayed to god. And I told him. I was so much worse last year...why am I in trouble for this? Why? If you blessed me with this gift why can't I suceed? I don't wanna live like this anymore. I've been fighting for so long, I could have been dead so many times, why am I not dead yet?
I don't kno how much more of this I can take...Man, someone's about to get jumped for real...They send me to these places to try and help me but it's only made me angrier and more withdrawn to people, and all I learned was how to fight.
I'm not trying to be like I was last year, I'm trying to get out of all of this, and the more I try the deeper I go. I don't wanna live like this anymore. I don't wanna be in jail of be a prostitute by the time I'm 17...but the more I open my eyes that seems to be whre I'm going...
Man...I'm out. If I don't update for a while, I got sent away to a more special school.