Random thoughts
My mind wanders
I should chase it!
The warmth of spring wraps me in a blanket of softness only disturbed by the smell of dog poop from the living room carpet... BAD DOG!
Mike playing his guitar. Pretending he doesn't want me to hear. It's beautiful!
Dave chatting on the computer with faceless "friends" whom I know nothing about. Is he a man? Is he a child? how will I know when to let go?
Josh stroking his cat with the tenderness of an angel.... until the cat tires of him or he tires of the cat.
Jess working on yet another project or assignment or strategy or report or ...... I can't keep up.... I hope she can keep up with herself and doesn't end up discouraged when she figures out that very few people think... and even less think well.
Joel... asleep.... again
Me.... not asleep.... again
My parenting is for shit... how come these little creatures don't come with instructions (of course I wouldn't read them anyway ... and even if I did I would disagree with them just out of spite). If your too involved they say your smothering them... If you're not involved enough you're neglecting them... If you try to balance it you're not consistant... If you say "yes" you're too easy... If you say "no" you're too hard... If you assign chores you're too mean.... If you don't you're not teaching them responsibility. How to know what is right? I guess I'll know the mistakes I made when they're 30 or when I see how they are with their own kids.... maybe? maybe I'll never know. Maybe no one can do it right. The old saying "everyone makes mistakes" comes to mind. But how can you know if the mistakes are of the "oops" variety or the "OH MY GOD" variety?