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my paid account w/ livejournal has lapsed. *sad face* but i get paid on friday and then i'll have the money to bump it back up to paid again.
i've finally decided to cancel my dishnetwork. i'm going to call them tomorrow and work that out. I'm not in a contract so I won't owe anything more than I already owe, which is good, but I know there's some steps to canceling. Sending in the receivers and what-not. I know I'm going to regret it a little bit, but I really don't use it enough to budget $60 a month to that.
Plus, I wanted to save up the money to buy a plane ticket to see mom and dad this year. Which, I have done. But I got a letter from the DMV and my tags expire in the end of August and that's $145 to renew, which blows, because thats most of my plane ticket money. So...canceling dish should help me save some money to go visit mom and dad this year. probably later in the year than i was planning, but still. that's something.
anyway...
i got to ride outside today with rabbit, which pretty much made my day. it might be my last ride on rabbit...he's probably being moved to another barn to be leased out to someone who came to see him once. i should see him wednesday before he goes, but i'm still really sad. going to miss him a lot...*sigh*
between that, and having watched this documentary called Buck with Katy and Jenni, it just makes me really sad that I don't have my own horse. All my horse experiences have been with other people's horses. And it just ... is frustrating. I want my own horse. I want my own horse that once I'm bonded with will still be mine and won't get taken away. I'm so tired of getting attached to other people's horses and then watching them leave or having to leave myself. And I mean...I know I'm closer now than I was when I worked at Wag to being in a financial place where I could own a horse, but I still think its years down the road.
At least I have Libbi. I wouldn't know what to do without her. Without having found her to teach me lessons, or what to do without her friendship.
I have some good friends in my life. ♥
And speaking of friendships and what-not...I'm actually kind of sad to be home alone on the 4th. Which is...different, for me. I guess I just miss all the fun times I had as a kid on the 4th of July. And with Emily - particularly the trip to Santa Cruz for the 4th. That's one of my best memories and I'm just sad to be alone.
I wish I could be with Jenni and Katy. But I need to stay home and babysit the puppy dogs, make sure Patrick's ok. I got some alprazolam for him and we'll see if that helps. It's just an anti-anxiety medication, not a sedative.
I did manage to take the pups to the dog park today and clean the kitchen and the living room. And do some laundry. Next step - a shower. I'm filthy! lol.
Anyway....happy 4th of july, y'all. :-)
i've finally decided to cancel my dishnetwork. i'm going to call them tomorrow and work that out. I'm not in a contract so I won't owe anything more than I already owe, which is good, but I know there's some steps to canceling. Sending in the receivers and what-not. I know I'm going to regret it a little bit, but I really don't use it enough to budget $60 a month to that.
Plus, I wanted to save up the money to buy a plane ticket to see mom and dad this year. Which, I have done. But I got a letter from the DMV and my tags expire in the end of August and that's $145 to renew, which blows, because thats most of my plane ticket money. So...canceling dish should help me save some money to go visit mom and dad this year. probably later in the year than i was planning, but still. that's something.
anyway...
i got to ride outside today with rabbit, which pretty much made my day. it might be my last ride on rabbit...he's probably being moved to another barn to be leased out to someone who came to see him once. i should see him wednesday before he goes, but i'm still really sad. going to miss him a lot...*sigh*
between that, and having watched this documentary called Buck with Katy and Jenni, it just makes me really sad that I don't have my own horse. All my horse experiences have been with other people's horses. And it just ... is frustrating. I want my own horse. I want my own horse that once I'm bonded with will still be mine and won't get taken away. I'm so tired of getting attached to other people's horses and then watching them leave or having to leave myself. And I mean...I know I'm closer now than I was when I worked at Wag to being in a financial place where I could own a horse, but I still think its years down the road.
At least I have Libbi. I wouldn't know what to do without her. Without having found her to teach me lessons, or what to do without her friendship.
I have some good friends in my life. ♥
And speaking of friendships and what-not...I'm actually kind of sad to be home alone on the 4th. Which is...different, for me. I guess I just miss all the fun times I had as a kid on the 4th of July. And with Emily - particularly the trip to Santa Cruz for the 4th. That's one of my best memories and I'm just sad to be alone.
I wish I could be with Jenni and Katy. But I need to stay home and babysit the puppy dogs, make sure Patrick's ok. I got some alprazolam for him and we'll see if that helps. It's just an anti-anxiety medication, not a sedative.
I did manage to take the pups to the dog park today and clean the kitchen and the living room. And do some laundry. Next step - a shower. I'm filthy! lol.
Anyway....happy 4th of july, y'all. :-)