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so i've been asked to update since my last post was pretty shitty.
let's see, what's there to say? hmm...well lately things haven't been too great. life in general just really sucks. i'm in an incredible amount of pain and it just keeps getting worse as the days go by. i've never actually wanted to go to the doctor before, but i honestly can't wait til friday at 11.30a so i can find out what's wrong with me. i don't think i've been this scared in a while and i've definitely never been this scared regarding my own health. all i can do is hope that everything is ok. i just hope that i wont need to have any kind of surgery. i'm supposed to be the tuff guy and look at me, i'm fucking scared shitless right now.
school is ok i guess. i hate waking up before dawn but yea, it's just something that has to be done i guess. my classes are decent but my book costs are not. every book i need is almost 100 dollars, if not over 100. the only day i dont like is wednesday because i go to class, then work, and then back to class.
well i guess i better get back to getting ready for school. i told angel i'd try my best to be on time today and here i am posting on my fucking lj. oh well. hopefully there will be another update soon. prolly friday after i find out what's wrong with me.
let's see, what's there to say? hmm...well lately things haven't been too great. life in general just really sucks. i'm in an incredible amount of pain and it just keeps getting worse as the days go by. i've never actually wanted to go to the doctor before, but i honestly can't wait til friday at 11.30a so i can find out what's wrong with me. i don't think i've been this scared in a while and i've definitely never been this scared regarding my own health. all i can do is hope that everything is ok. i just hope that i wont need to have any kind of surgery. i'm supposed to be the tuff guy and look at me, i'm fucking scared shitless right now.
school is ok i guess. i hate waking up before dawn but yea, it's just something that has to be done i guess. my classes are decent but my book costs are not. every book i need is almost 100 dollars, if not over 100. the only day i dont like is wednesday because i go to class, then work, and then back to class.
well i guess i better get back to getting ready for school. i told angel i'd try my best to be on time today and here i am posting on my fucking lj. oh well. hopefully there will be another update soon. prolly friday after i find out what's wrong with me.