emotions everywhere
I'm so emotional lately. I HATE having to rely on other people for stuff. I can't get around my own fucking apartment. People keep putting stuff in the way, so I can't even get to the kitchen.
Mom got herself an apartment down the street, and she moves in there next Friday I think. I'm glad that she made a decision finally about what she's going to do. I know for my little sister it was pretty confusing and upsetting for her. I think my mom is going to pack this weekend and my little sister is going to her dad's so mom is most likely going to crash here on the couch.
I wanna get back to work already. My left leg is killing me though, since I've been putting so much pressure on it and it's building muscle so it's sore, and I've always had problems with my left leg. From the knee up to the thigh it's always numb. It's been that way now for years. So it's pretty weak right now.
I'm also thinking alot about work, and hoping that they are going to let me come back. I'm sure they will I'm just worried about it anyway.
I have got to get out of this house too. I love my family to pieces, but I want my own room, my own space. Not neccessarily be alone, but have my own space in my own area. I feel like I'm taking up my grandma's space, and feel like I'm having to walk on eggshells about everything. I can't stand it. I wanna be in a place where I can actually SHARE things IF I have a roommate. I wanna be in a place where I can have my own room. My own space. That truck right now is draining me from having my own place. When I catch up on my bills, it seems like something happens and I get behind again.
Mom got herself an apartment down the street, and she moves in there next Friday I think. I'm glad that she made a decision finally about what she's going to do. I know for my little sister it was pretty confusing and upsetting for her. I think my mom is going to pack this weekend and my little sister is going to her dad's so mom is most likely going to crash here on the couch.
I wanna get back to work already. My left leg is killing me though, since I've been putting so much pressure on it and it's building muscle so it's sore, and I've always had problems with my left leg. From the knee up to the thigh it's always numb. It's been that way now for years. So it's pretty weak right now.
I'm also thinking alot about work, and hoping that they are going to let me come back. I'm sure they will I'm just worried about it anyway.
I have got to get out of this house too. I love my family to pieces, but I want my own room, my own space. Not neccessarily be alone, but have my own space in my own area. I feel like I'm taking up my grandma's space, and feel like I'm having to walk on eggshells about everything. I can't stand it. I wanna be in a place where I can actually SHARE things IF I have a roommate. I wanna be in a place where I can have my own room. My own space. That truck right now is draining me from having my own place. When I catch up on my bills, it seems like something happens and I get behind again.