Such is life.
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I’ve been up since 3 am.
I couldn’t sleep anymore. I tried to study for a bit but my mind has just been going and going.
Suddenly I’ve come to a conclusion that I can’t discuss on here but I am starting to think is more and more the reason for some things.
It’s 5 am and finally the tears are coming down that I cannot control.
No matter how hard I try
No matter how much I fight
I just cannot win at anything.
I can’t win at work.
I can’t win at relationships.
I can’t win at school.
I can’t win at anything.
I keep trying but the truth is that I cannot win.
I thought everything was going to work out. I thought things had gotten better. In the last two weeks I can only see how wrong I was and how stuck I am.
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If you are someone I normally call or something, I won’t be for a while. I don’t feel like talking to anyone. It’s pointless.