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You know sometimes my vision can become blurred and I stare at things for days, weeks at a time, wondering what they are. It occurs to me that if I just walk a little closer, maybe I could see them more clearly.
But then sometimes I see things so clearly and they look wonderful and I'm so afraid to get too close because then I'll see that it isn't really what it seemed to clearly be.
Everything can be so distorted just by the way I look at it. Trying to find real clarity is a trying task for me these days. What's real and what's imagined are becoming jumbled together in my mind.
I wish that if I closed my eyes, it would all go away, but it doesn't. It's all still there, larger than life to me. I can't find any serenity or peace. Or maybe it's there and I have it confused with all of the chaos that I've created.
Maybe not all who wander are lost, but I sure am!!
But then sometimes I see things so clearly and they look wonderful and I'm so afraid to get too close because then I'll see that it isn't really what it seemed to clearly be.
Everything can be so distorted just by the way I look at it. Trying to find real clarity is a trying task for me these days. What's real and what's imagined are becoming jumbled together in my mind.
I wish that if I closed my eyes, it would all go away, but it doesn't. It's all still there, larger than life to me. I can't find any serenity or peace. Or maybe it's there and I have it confused with all of the chaos that I've created.
Maybe not all who wander are lost, but I sure am!!