Feb 13, 2004 14:35
So we stumbled into this in a quickened frenzy, both of us yearning to co-exist within one another, sweating, clawing, moaning and touching.
Words were spoken tonight I never though I would hear.
When I was a little girl, my dad would make plans with me and then break them. He was always terrible about keeping his promises. I remember one time he promised to take me to the Yankees game, and I was all excited and I had my baseball hat and everything, and I waited in the front yard....but he never came.
Stumbled home drunk that night, ranting and swinging something awful. Fuckin loco, and since then, I have not wanted to let any males into my heart.
Women were different, women were soft, and sensual, promising and gentle. I found myself breaking hearts more often then mine would get broken...which was new for me. I never let myself become fully emotionally attached.
Vin was a solid man, someone who I could have amazing conversations with, and fantastic sex, but something was always missing. We would fight like cats and dogs, and it reminded me all too much about my father. And thus, we went our seperate ways.
The words that escaped his lips tonight, were different than any I have ever heard before. He isn't terribly verbal, his actions speak more than his words, but when he does say something meaningful, my heart drops and I am floored...completely dumbstruck.
I was afraid these past few days, afraid he didn't feel about me the way I knew I was capable of feeling about him. Tonite proved me wrong. Tonite I took a chance...I always was a gambler, so it looks like I'm back in the game.
I love you more than you will ever know, you are the best thing that has happened to me in awhile. Thank you for walking in when everyone else walked out.
I love you.