well it's over...
The search is over and the end is near. haha.
Ok here's the story....
I interviewed on Monday with an elementary school in tampa for being a speech therapy assistant, which is really the job that i am qualified to do having not been to graduate school. I was really excited about it since i met the principal and the speech therapist and they were both really nice and the school was really nice. I really thought it was my shot. Plus like half way in between the school and USF is carollwood/citrus park, which i would have happily moved to. Then on Wednesday i went home to do a second interview with an elementary school is seminole county. I already had a half time position at a middle school there, but i told them i wasn't able to only work half time because i wouldn't be able to support myself. So i basically walked into this school on Thursday morning and everyone in the entire office knew who i was. I was already being introduced as the "new speech teacher". Plus everyone had been practicing my last to make sure they were saying it correctly. Luckily it was a very welcoming experience, but i hadn't quite realized that they assumed i already accepted the job. Anyways the principal showed me the room i get and the HR clerk already signed me up for new employee orientation. It was like a whirlwind when i left there. My mom wanted to know why i didn't tell them that i hadn't decided yet, but as i explained to my mom there wasn't really an options for me to speak. But anyways i wasn't too worried because i thought i would hear back from the school in tampa. well here comes the shitty part. I did hear today... and they have already filled the position. I really think for a few minutes my heart fell out of my chest. I really wanted to live here and work here and go to school here. But it doesn't look like that is the plan for me. I don't think anyones understands how much there is nothing to do in lake mary. and when i say nothing i mean nothing. Mind you it is a very affluent area with minimal crime and good people, but after 10 don't expect to leave your house. Not to mention i really don't think i want to go to UCF for graduate school. I've just really never been impressed with how they run things. But maybe life will take me in completely different direction all together. I have no idea. I'm also really scared. Scared of messing up my job and my kids. Scared of living on my own. Scared of never getting out of my mother's reach. Scared of not having a life.
I will miss every single person i have met here. No matter who you are. I never could have had the experiences i had without each of you. Maybe i just met you a few weeks ago, maybe i've known you since the day i got here. It doesn't matter you have made the past three years worth while. I'm gonna miss nebraska trips, i'm gonna miss the citrus park mall, i'm gonna miss CL (never thought i would say that), i'm gonna miss the entire PC crew (even the adopted ones), I'm gonna miss my two favorite lesbians, i'm gonna miss coming home at 4am for nights in a row, I'm gonna miss all my filipinos, i'm gonna miss peabodys, i'm gonna miss 3am trips to mcdonalds (LM has no 24 hours mcd's), i'm gonna miss the two girls who have completely gotta me through the last semester and summer, i'm gonna miss the two BEST roommates a girl could ask for, and i'm gonna miss one of my best friends (who has literally been there through it ALL!!)
I will be ok. I will get through this and I will come out victorious. As much as I have put God on my backburner, i truly believe he has a plan for me. I have to believe that everyday or I don't think I would even be alive today. So here's to the future for everyone. We all grow up sometime, i just wish i was more ready for it.
I think getting drunk in on the plan for tonight... TOMORROW I GET TO SEE MY HUSBAND!!!!!!!!I am so excited and it has made this entire summer worth it! Hopefully i will not be too hung over, but who cares cause these are the days! The days i should be out having fun till all hours and not coming home alone and enjoy this life i have been given. I love you all!
Forever in your debt,
Miss Rachel, the "new" speech teacher
Ok here's the story....
I interviewed on Monday with an elementary school in tampa for being a speech therapy assistant, which is really the job that i am qualified to do having not been to graduate school. I was really excited about it since i met the principal and the speech therapist and they were both really nice and the school was really nice. I really thought it was my shot. Plus like half way in between the school and USF is carollwood/citrus park, which i would have happily moved to. Then on Wednesday i went home to do a second interview with an elementary school is seminole county. I already had a half time position at a middle school there, but i told them i wasn't able to only work half time because i wouldn't be able to support myself. So i basically walked into this school on Thursday morning and everyone in the entire office knew who i was. I was already being introduced as the "new speech teacher". Plus everyone had been practicing my last to make sure they were saying it correctly. Luckily it was a very welcoming experience, but i hadn't quite realized that they assumed i already accepted the job. Anyways the principal showed me the room i get and the HR clerk already signed me up for new employee orientation. It was like a whirlwind when i left there. My mom wanted to know why i didn't tell them that i hadn't decided yet, but as i explained to my mom there wasn't really an options for me to speak. But anyways i wasn't too worried because i thought i would hear back from the school in tampa. well here comes the shitty part. I did hear today... and they have already filled the position. I really think for a few minutes my heart fell out of my chest. I really wanted to live here and work here and go to school here. But it doesn't look like that is the plan for me. I don't think anyones understands how much there is nothing to do in lake mary. and when i say nothing i mean nothing. Mind you it is a very affluent area with minimal crime and good people, but after 10 don't expect to leave your house. Not to mention i really don't think i want to go to UCF for graduate school. I've just really never been impressed with how they run things. But maybe life will take me in completely different direction all together. I have no idea. I'm also really scared. Scared of messing up my job and my kids. Scared of living on my own. Scared of never getting out of my mother's reach. Scared of not having a life.
I will miss every single person i have met here. No matter who you are. I never could have had the experiences i had without each of you. Maybe i just met you a few weeks ago, maybe i've known you since the day i got here. It doesn't matter you have made the past three years worth while. I'm gonna miss nebraska trips, i'm gonna miss the citrus park mall, i'm gonna miss CL (never thought i would say that), i'm gonna miss the entire PC crew (even the adopted ones), I'm gonna miss my two favorite lesbians, i'm gonna miss coming home at 4am for nights in a row, I'm gonna miss all my filipinos, i'm gonna miss peabodys, i'm gonna miss 3am trips to mcdonalds (LM has no 24 hours mcd's), i'm gonna miss the two girls who have completely gotta me through the last semester and summer, i'm gonna miss the two BEST roommates a girl could ask for, and i'm gonna miss one of my best friends (who has literally been there through it ALL!!)
I will be ok. I will get through this and I will come out victorious. As much as I have put God on my backburner, i truly believe he has a plan for me. I have to believe that everyday or I don't think I would even be alive today. So here's to the future for everyone. We all grow up sometime, i just wish i was more ready for it.
I think getting drunk in on the plan for tonight... TOMORROW I GET TO SEE MY HUSBAND!!!!!!!!I am so excited and it has made this entire summer worth it! Hopefully i will not be too hung over, but who cares cause these are the days! The days i should be out having fun till all hours and not coming home alone and enjoy this life i have been given. I love you all!
Forever in your debt,
Miss Rachel, the "new" speech teacher