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well this weekend was pretty good.. friday i didn't do much i had to work.. blah.. then i just came home.. didn't feel like goin out after... then saturday.. we got a hotel with a hot tub.. soo nice.. we had fun..i had a bad week so i needed but then later it just all came back to me... sorry guys for messing up the end of the night... but then again it seems like i am messing everything up latly.. and on top of that i have been thinkin about the past alot and it hurts.. i try so hard to just blow it off.. i still don't understand y u have to hurt me so much... i never hurt u.. thats what kills me the most.. and i can't just let go becuz i care to much.. and i don't want to lose u.. i guess i have always thought that at one point or another we would get back together.. but now.. i don't kno.. i mean i think ur wit someone else now.. and they r prob alot better then i ever was... and yet i still don't get y u ever loved me anyways... i don't see how anyone could ever fall in love wit me.. i am nothing special...but w/e...