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holy christ, i just stumbled upon this and somehow remember my log-in info and re-read all my entries. not that anybody actually reads this... i would rather them not, but i just like coming back once in a while and reading old thoughts. i can't believe sophomore year of high school was already three years ago. it's funny how you think you have everything figured out, and then as you grow up you learn you have to teach yourself to never think you know it all. at some point you stop living for other people and start living for doing things for yourself... i just sounded like the introduction to the Real World. I think it's in that segway that people become selfish, egotistical, and rude. People don't have to be this way, they only think they do. I used to think i was set for life with friends that would never leave, a boyfriend i would end up marrying, and a hobby that would eventually turn into my career. All of that has changed. In one of my old entries i said "i wonder what things will be like in two years from now, i'll be getting ready for college, where am i gunna end up? who will my friends be?". I wonder if the old me ever guessed that i would end up breaking up with my boyfriend after learning how completely different we are from another, follwing up with never talking to each other. I would have never envisioned myself hanging out with the people i did senior year. And i definitely never would have guessed that i would get arrested and forced to go to the closest school so i could live at home. Growing up really is fun, looking back on the things i've done is funner. Everything's crazy right now, though. I was supposed to move away next year, but my parents or i can't afford it anymore, and i don't want to transfer out of UML anymore so i'm just gunna keep doing my thing and finding myself. (i have way too many thoughts right now there's no way i can organize them.) One thing i love is that i now understand the meaning of the word friendship. I've learned that i'm a people person, definitely. i'm friends with everyone. i lovelovelove it. i'm babbling and i don't really know what i'm talking about anymore... i have to go to practice, yay rugby!