i know that in the end, he will not follow me.
he wont come to me to ask me what is wrong, he will not ask me why i am feeling the way i am feeling and force me to be the way that i am. i could get raped in the middle of the night and he would never know because he was too lazy to get off his tired ass to see whats wrong. I am tired of living like this. i know in my heart and in my head what is right, but why i cannot go through with it, i do not know.