herro.
i suddenly have the urge to see team america.
going to a hair appointment at 2:30 then off to the airport by 3:30.
today is my last day in ill aye.
so yesterday, and by yesterday, i mean all day, i tried breaking it off with trig. for many, stupid, girlish reasons. shut the fuck up, you dont know me. its just that i dont like it when he calls me and hes all distracted b/c there are chicks around him and right before i hang up, i hear girls giggling. and OF COURSE, he has a reason or an excuse for why he is in that situation. so i said, eh, fuck it, i dont want to put up with it any longer and i told him. i love that he has girlfriends, but i cant trust him. some of the chicks, like his brother's friendgirl, gina, i can trust, but i still dont trust him. i try, but its so hard. from now on, i am only making friends with lesbians and hermits with gangrene goddamnit.
i tried talking to him about my grandmother, but no luck, he talks about how he wore a black shoe and a brown shoe. i try talking to him about us and he talks about how many credits he is going to take. its not like i can ask him to listen, i just think if he cares, he will. obviously, he doesnt.
he keeps bringing up my ex-friendboys, but i dont know why. yah, we never really fought, but i didnt like em enough to give a shit. i am not trying to break it off with him, i just think if i got my own place and we get in an argument, i will have a safe place to sulk without him pestering me.
he has kept me here time and time again and i really appreciate that he is taking all of my crap, but i dont want to be with someone who thinks they are better than i am. he said any other person that will put up with me is going to be a total pussy. i just think that is manipulative and not true. and to be MORE honest, i want to be single. i miss being single. i love being able to tell people that i cant b/c i am with someone, but i also miss having the freedom and non stressdom of being single.
this is a really effing long entry. fawken eh, i hate this so much. i think still think its wierd when i say i love you b/c i forced him to say it first, sorta. i doubt his convictions because none of his actions seem to back them up.
ANCHI, GET YOUR ROCK PILE STARTED. boys are stupid.
going to a hair appointment at 2:30 then off to the airport by 3:30.
today is my last day in ill aye.
so yesterday, and by yesterday, i mean all day, i tried breaking it off with trig. for many, stupid, girlish reasons. shut the fuck up, you dont know me. its just that i dont like it when he calls me and hes all distracted b/c there are chicks around him and right before i hang up, i hear girls giggling. and OF COURSE, he has a reason or an excuse for why he is in that situation. so i said, eh, fuck it, i dont want to put up with it any longer and i told him. i love that he has girlfriends, but i cant trust him. some of the chicks, like his brother's friendgirl, gina, i can trust, but i still dont trust him. i try, but its so hard. from now on, i am only making friends with lesbians and hermits with gangrene goddamnit.
i tried talking to him about my grandmother, but no luck, he talks about how he wore a black shoe and a brown shoe. i try talking to him about us and he talks about how many credits he is going to take. its not like i can ask him to listen, i just think if he cares, he will. obviously, he doesnt.
he keeps bringing up my ex-friendboys, but i dont know why. yah, we never really fought, but i didnt like em enough to give a shit. i am not trying to break it off with him, i just think if i got my own place and we get in an argument, i will have a safe place to sulk without him pestering me.
he has kept me here time and time again and i really appreciate that he is taking all of my crap, but i dont want to be with someone who thinks they are better than i am. he said any other person that will put up with me is going to be a total pussy. i just think that is manipulative and not true. and to be MORE honest, i want to be single. i miss being single. i love being able to tell people that i cant b/c i am with someone, but i also miss having the freedom and non stressdom of being single.
this is a really effing long entry. fawken eh, i hate this so much. i think still think its wierd when i say i love you b/c i forced him to say it first, sorta. i doubt his convictions because none of his actions seem to back them up.
ANCHI, GET YOUR ROCK PILE STARTED. boys are stupid.