Reasons to Drink
Just had this conversation with my "friend"..
Can you feel the love?
The Forsaken Angel [10:25 PM]: so uh..
The Forsaken Angel [10:30 PM]: I'm checking out plane ticket prices online
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:44 PM]: tix to were?
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:46 PM]: you busy
The Forsaken Angel [10:56 PM]: oh
The Forsaken Angel [10:56 PM]: sound is off
The Forsaken Angel [10:57 PM]: was lookin at your myspace page
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:57 PM]: ye a
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:57 PM]: so wer yo ugoin to??
The Forsaken Angel [10:57 PM]: i was curious to see how much it would cost if i actually did decide to take off for a vacation
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:58 PM]: yea were yo goin
The Forsaken Angel [10:58 PM]: I might attempt to go back to plan a and go check out Indiana if there is still a place to go when I get there
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:59 PM]: o really now,
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: I have no life here.
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:59 PM]: you know what , i guess you dont need me hangin around no more
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: you pushed me away
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:59 PM]: im done
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: while you reeled me in
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: i gave up all my plans for taking off
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: and focused on you
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: totally
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:00 PM]: i didnt ask you to
The Forsaken Angel [11:00 PM]: ive been devoted to YOU ever since I dunno when
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:00 PM]: what ever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:00 PM]: i guess were done thAT THAT
The Forsaken Angel [11:00 PM]: what ever?
The Forsaken Angel [11:00 PM]: did we ever actually have a chance?
The Forsaken Angel [11:01 PM]: youd never be able to love me back
The Forsaken Angel [11:01 PM]: no matter how much I love you
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:01 PM]: not with you and all your internet buddies not with me nope
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:01 PM]: but i guess i cant still be your FRIEND
The Forsaken Angel [11:01 PM]: Its not like I have cybersex or some shit
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:02 PM]: what ever yo
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: And what about you?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:02 PM]: and what about me???
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: you were kicking it with some chick at the mall
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: I wanna be jealous
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:02 PM]: really morogan???
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: But would it matter?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:03 PM]: whatever it s done go ahead with your plans dont le tme stop you , sorry
The Forsaken Angel [11:03 PM]: yeah i said i was considering it
The Forsaken Angel [11:03 PM]: and i see your reaction
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:03 PM]: well whatever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:04 PM]: good
The Forsaken Angel [11:04 PM]: apparently im not worth your time to maybe convince me that you MIGHT like me enough or love me some day
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:05 PM]: owelll glad it didnt go no further
The Forsaken Angel [11:05 PM]: easy for you to say
The Forsaken Angel [11:05 PM]: you didnt ever love me
The Forsaken Angel [11:05 PM]: but i did and still do
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:06 PM]: i dont have to love ot have feeling
The Forsaken Angel [11:06 PM]: what feeling?
The Forsaken Angel [11:06 PM]: you have feelings for me?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:06 PM]: yea but after what you tell me feelings change dont let them get to me
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: Maybe none of this is even the real point
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: Im 36. I'm old.
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: I'm different.
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:07 PM]: yea i guess thats it
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: I don't think I'll ever be able to have a real relationship with a man.
The Forsaken Angel [11:09 PM]: As much as I hate being alone, I'm destined to be that way no matter what I do.
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:09 PM]: ..
The Forsaken Angel [11:10 PM]: I think i should forget plans A B C and D..
The Forsaken Angel [11:10 PM]: and just get me and mel a place somewhere else
The Forsaken Angel [11:12 PM]: damn
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:12 PM]: i dont know what to say to you telling me you change plans for ME i never asked you to.i never promised anything, i was hoping i couldnt end up together with yo ubut i m not sure right now is the right time
The Forsaken Angel [11:12 PM]: i think i could use a drink
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:13 PM]: see and then you cut yourself and you drink to tkae care of your problems ,
The Forsaken Angel [11:13 PM]: so??
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:13 PM]: mae s me feel bad
The Forsaken Angel [11:13 PM]: yout ake xanax
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:13 PM]: i take xanax sometimes yea , not cuz i have problems
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: what could possibly require so much xanax at one time?
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: you nearly DIED on my bed
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: if only you could have heard me crying softly in your ear
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: and felt me clinging to you
The Forsaken Angel [11:15 PM]: listening to your chest
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:15 PM]: yea if only i was sober to know i wsas taking that much
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:15 PM]: youknow i cant be with someone who seems to have plan bcd if things dont go right
The Forsaken Angel [11:15 PM]: is it a crime to have backup plans in case shit doesnt work out?
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: i dont have a plan ABC or D
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:16 PM]: i dont think its goin to work out the way i feel right now
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: that was sarcasm
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: my original plan was to go there until I met you
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:16 PM]: ye awhy would i change your plans you barley knewme and still barely know me
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: i havent even been considering it an option anymore
The Forsaken Angel [11:17 PM]: because i thought you might be worth the sacrifice..
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:17 PM]: yeayea
The Forsaken Angel [11:17 PM]: because i thought there might have been a reason to stay here and try to make things work
The Forsaken Angel [11:18 PM]: fuck
The Forsaken Angel [11:18 PM]: youre so cruel
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:18 PM]: well why would being involved witha guy change anythingdo guys have like super powers or something?
The Forsaken Angel [11:19 PM]: guys only have the power to break girls hearts.
The Forsaken Angel [11:20 PM]: Now if you'll excuse me, I think I'm gonna go ahead to sav-on for some refreshments for me and mel
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:20 PM]: whatever
The Forsaken Angel [11:20 PM]: yeah
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: like you care
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:21 PM]: you sucj
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: yeah
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: i knew that
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:21 PM]: have fun with your bottle
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: i will
The Forsaken Angel [11:22 PM]: have fun with whoever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:22 PM]: same to you
The Forsaken Angel [11:23 PM]: i still need to get your insurance ticket written off
The Forsaken Angel [11:23 PM]: dont forget about that
The Forsaken Angel [11:23 PM]: id appreciate it
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:24 PM]: yea
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:30 PM]: so how yo meet the guy from indiana?
The Forsaken Angel [11:30 PM]: years ago
The Forsaken Angel [11:31 PM]: steve and me started to fall apart and he always told me i could go there if i needed a place to go
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:31 PM]: some guy you met while with your husband?
The Forsaken Angel [11:31 PM]: we were internet friends, thats it
The Forsaken Angel [11:32 PM]: he told me if i ever had no where to go i could come there if i had no choice
The Forsaken Angel [11:32 PM]: when me and steve were finally through, we started talking more and he came to visit me
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:33 PM]: so yo been toalking to himn all this time
The Forsaken Angel [11:33 PM]: no
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:33 PM]: ye ai bet
The Forsaken Angel [11:33 PM]: i only talked to him on the computer since then
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:33 PM]: and who else?
The Forsaken Angel [11:33 PM]: and i havent really spoken to him in a while actually
The Forsaken Angel [11:40 PM]: can you name 5 things about me that make you want to be with me?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:40 PM]: na
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:40 PM]: what for im done
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:40 PM]: sorry
The Forsaken Angel [11:40 PM]: damn
The Forsaken Angel [11:40 PM]: you really are a cruel person
The Forsaken Angel [11:41 PM]: no regard for me whatsoever
The Forsaken Angel [11:41 PM]: peace out
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:42 PM]: yo uexpect me to be cool with you talking to others dude online ?
The Forsaken Angel [11:42 PM]: friends.
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:43 PM]: whatever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:43 PM]: i dont beleieve that
The Forsaken Angel [11:43 PM]: i didnt think so
The Forsaken Angel [11:43 PM]: one who doesnt trust cant be trusted
The Forsaken Angel [11:43 PM]: and i cant believe i let myself trust YOU
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:45 PM]: i guess adios then
The Forsaken Angel [11:46 PM]: yeah. I can see this isnt going anywhere.
The Forsaken Angel [11:46 PM]: Youre playing with my head
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:46 PM]: your playing with my life
The Forsaken Angel [11:46 PM]: I'm not playing with anything
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:47 PM]: whatever your just playing around
The Forsaken Angel [11:47 PM]: Ive been totally serious with you
The Forsaken Angel [11:48 PM]: I wish you could see yourself from my eyes...
The Forsaken Angel [11:48 PM]: Youre going to be a lonely man with an attitude like yours..
The Forsaken Angel [11:49 PM]: You just broke the heart of the nicest woman you will ever know in your life.
The Forsaken Angel [11:50 PM]: Its been a pleasure and I have no regrets, take care and forget the ticket. I guess thats my problem now.
The Forsaken Angel [11:50 PM]: I wont call you or IM you out of the blue and harass you in emails or some stupid shit.
The Forsaken Angel [11:52 PM]: I'll erase you from my messengers to make it easier to get over all this
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:53 PM]: have fun making onlineFRIenDS
The Forsaken Angel [11:54 PM]: right
The Forsaken Angel [11:54 PM]: id rather have enemies
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:56 PM]: but your friend ly to anyone who comes along who would wanna be your enemy?????
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:56 PM]: its been fun , im out
Ex-FuckBuddy signed off at 11:57 PM
Can you feel the love?
The Forsaken Angel [10:25 PM]: so uh..
The Forsaken Angel [10:30 PM]: I'm checking out plane ticket prices online
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:44 PM]: tix to were?
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:46 PM]: you busy
The Forsaken Angel [10:56 PM]: oh
The Forsaken Angel [10:56 PM]: sound is off
The Forsaken Angel [10:57 PM]: was lookin at your myspace page
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:57 PM]: ye a
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:57 PM]: so wer yo ugoin to??
The Forsaken Angel [10:57 PM]: i was curious to see how much it would cost if i actually did decide to take off for a vacation
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:58 PM]: yea were yo goin
The Forsaken Angel [10:58 PM]: I might attempt to go back to plan a and go check out Indiana if there is still a place to go when I get there
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:59 PM]: o really now,
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: I have no life here.
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:59 PM]: you know what , i guess you dont need me hangin around no more
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: you pushed me away
Ex-FuckBuddy [10:59 PM]: im done
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: while you reeled me in
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: i gave up all my plans for taking off
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: and focused on you
The Forsaken Angel [10:59 PM]: totally
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:00 PM]: i didnt ask you to
The Forsaken Angel [11:00 PM]: ive been devoted to YOU ever since I dunno when
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:00 PM]: what ever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:00 PM]: i guess were done thAT THAT
The Forsaken Angel [11:00 PM]: what ever?
The Forsaken Angel [11:00 PM]: did we ever actually have a chance?
The Forsaken Angel [11:01 PM]: youd never be able to love me back
The Forsaken Angel [11:01 PM]: no matter how much I love you
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:01 PM]: not with you and all your internet buddies not with me nope
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:01 PM]: but i guess i cant still be your FRIEND
The Forsaken Angel [11:01 PM]: Its not like I have cybersex or some shit
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:02 PM]: what ever yo
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: And what about you?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:02 PM]: and what about me???
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: you were kicking it with some chick at the mall
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: I wanna be jealous
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:02 PM]: really morogan???
The Forsaken Angel [11:02 PM]: But would it matter?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:03 PM]: whatever it s done go ahead with your plans dont le tme stop you , sorry
The Forsaken Angel [11:03 PM]: yeah i said i was considering it
The Forsaken Angel [11:03 PM]: and i see your reaction
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:03 PM]: well whatever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:04 PM]: good
The Forsaken Angel [11:04 PM]: apparently im not worth your time to maybe convince me that you MIGHT like me enough or love me some day
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:05 PM]: owelll glad it didnt go no further
The Forsaken Angel [11:05 PM]: easy for you to say
The Forsaken Angel [11:05 PM]: you didnt ever love me
The Forsaken Angel [11:05 PM]: but i did and still do
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:06 PM]: i dont have to love ot have feeling
The Forsaken Angel [11:06 PM]: what feeling?
The Forsaken Angel [11:06 PM]: you have feelings for me?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:06 PM]: yea but after what you tell me feelings change dont let them get to me
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: Maybe none of this is even the real point
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: Im 36. I'm old.
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: I'm different.
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:07 PM]: yea i guess thats it
The Forsaken Angel [11:07 PM]: I don't think I'll ever be able to have a real relationship with a man.
The Forsaken Angel [11:09 PM]: As much as I hate being alone, I'm destined to be that way no matter what I do.
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:09 PM]: ..
The Forsaken Angel [11:10 PM]: I think i should forget plans A B C and D..
The Forsaken Angel [11:10 PM]: and just get me and mel a place somewhere else
The Forsaken Angel [11:12 PM]: damn
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:12 PM]: i dont know what to say to you telling me you change plans for ME i never asked you to.i never promised anything, i was hoping i couldnt end up together with yo ubut i m not sure right now is the right time
The Forsaken Angel [11:12 PM]: i think i could use a drink
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:13 PM]: see and then you cut yourself and you drink to tkae care of your problems ,
The Forsaken Angel [11:13 PM]: so??
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:13 PM]: mae s me feel bad
The Forsaken Angel [11:13 PM]: yout ake xanax
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:13 PM]: i take xanax sometimes yea , not cuz i have problems
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: what could possibly require so much xanax at one time?
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: you nearly DIED on my bed
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: if only you could have heard me crying softly in your ear
The Forsaken Angel [11:14 PM]: and felt me clinging to you
The Forsaken Angel [11:15 PM]: listening to your chest
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:15 PM]: yea if only i was sober to know i wsas taking that much
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:15 PM]: youknow i cant be with someone who seems to have plan bcd if things dont go right
The Forsaken Angel [11:15 PM]: is it a crime to have backup plans in case shit doesnt work out?
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: i dont have a plan ABC or D
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:16 PM]: i dont think its goin to work out the way i feel right now
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: that was sarcasm
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: my original plan was to go there until I met you
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:16 PM]: ye awhy would i change your plans you barley knewme and still barely know me
The Forsaken Angel [11:16 PM]: i havent even been considering it an option anymore
The Forsaken Angel [11:17 PM]: because i thought you might be worth the sacrifice..
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:17 PM]: yeayea
The Forsaken Angel [11:17 PM]: because i thought there might have been a reason to stay here and try to make things work
The Forsaken Angel [11:18 PM]: fuck
The Forsaken Angel [11:18 PM]: youre so cruel
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:18 PM]: well why would being involved witha guy change anythingdo guys have like super powers or something?
The Forsaken Angel [11:19 PM]: guys only have the power to break girls hearts.
The Forsaken Angel [11:20 PM]: Now if you'll excuse me, I think I'm gonna go ahead to sav-on for some refreshments for me and mel
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:20 PM]: whatever
The Forsaken Angel [11:20 PM]: yeah
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: like you care
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:21 PM]: you sucj
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: yeah
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: i knew that
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:21 PM]: have fun with your bottle
The Forsaken Angel [11:21 PM]: i will
The Forsaken Angel [11:22 PM]: have fun with whoever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:22 PM]: same to you
The Forsaken Angel [11:23 PM]: i still need to get your insurance ticket written off
The Forsaken Angel [11:23 PM]: dont forget about that
The Forsaken Angel [11:23 PM]: id appreciate it
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:24 PM]: yea
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:30 PM]: so how yo meet the guy from indiana?
The Forsaken Angel [11:30 PM]: years ago
The Forsaken Angel [11:31 PM]: steve and me started to fall apart and he always told me i could go there if i needed a place to go
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:31 PM]: some guy you met while with your husband?
The Forsaken Angel [11:31 PM]: we were internet friends, thats it
The Forsaken Angel [11:32 PM]: he told me if i ever had no where to go i could come there if i had no choice
The Forsaken Angel [11:32 PM]: when me and steve were finally through, we started talking more and he came to visit me
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:33 PM]: so yo been toalking to himn all this time
The Forsaken Angel [11:33 PM]: no
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:33 PM]: ye ai bet
The Forsaken Angel [11:33 PM]: i only talked to him on the computer since then
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:33 PM]: and who else?
The Forsaken Angel [11:33 PM]: and i havent really spoken to him in a while actually
The Forsaken Angel [11:40 PM]: can you name 5 things about me that make you want to be with me?
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:40 PM]: na
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:40 PM]: what for im done
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:40 PM]: sorry
The Forsaken Angel [11:40 PM]: damn
The Forsaken Angel [11:40 PM]: you really are a cruel person
The Forsaken Angel [11:41 PM]: no regard for me whatsoever
The Forsaken Angel [11:41 PM]: peace out
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:42 PM]: yo uexpect me to be cool with you talking to others dude online ?
The Forsaken Angel [11:42 PM]: friends.
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:43 PM]: whatever
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:43 PM]: i dont beleieve that
The Forsaken Angel [11:43 PM]: i didnt think so
The Forsaken Angel [11:43 PM]: one who doesnt trust cant be trusted
The Forsaken Angel [11:43 PM]: and i cant believe i let myself trust YOU
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:45 PM]: i guess adios then
The Forsaken Angel [11:46 PM]: yeah. I can see this isnt going anywhere.
The Forsaken Angel [11:46 PM]: Youre playing with my head
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:46 PM]: your playing with my life
The Forsaken Angel [11:46 PM]: I'm not playing with anything
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:47 PM]: whatever your just playing around
The Forsaken Angel [11:47 PM]: Ive been totally serious with you
The Forsaken Angel [11:48 PM]: I wish you could see yourself from my eyes...
The Forsaken Angel [11:48 PM]: Youre going to be a lonely man with an attitude like yours..
The Forsaken Angel [11:49 PM]: You just broke the heart of the nicest woman you will ever know in your life.
The Forsaken Angel [11:50 PM]: Its been a pleasure and I have no regrets, take care and forget the ticket. I guess thats my problem now.
The Forsaken Angel [11:50 PM]: I wont call you or IM you out of the blue and harass you in emails or some stupid shit.
The Forsaken Angel [11:52 PM]: I'll erase you from my messengers to make it easier to get over all this
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:53 PM]: have fun making onlineFRIenDS
The Forsaken Angel [11:54 PM]: right
The Forsaken Angel [11:54 PM]: id rather have enemies
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:56 PM]: but your friend ly to anyone who comes along who would wanna be your enemy?????
Ex-FuckBuddy [11:56 PM]: its been fun , im out
Ex-FuckBuddy signed off at 11:57 PM