Life in the fast lane

[ms_nightmares]

Wow.. I never realized how popular I could be until I split up with the neanderthal husband I had. Now I'm not exactly used to things like.. attention. And the craziest thing is that every guy who has talked to me online in the last week has been in his early 20's. It's kinda freakin me out somewhat. All this new freedom.. the breathing room.. being in control of my own destiny. All these young guys who are totally into older chicks. It's rather inspiring actually to feel so liberated after 18 years of mental and emotional abuse but it hasn't been easy to adjust to this whole new lifestyle. The best part is that I got rid of HIM of course but on the other hand, I never wanted to be alone. I just didn't want to be with HIM. Anyone but him. And the whole socializing thing in the chat room is already getting out of hand and I've only been going in there for a week now. Apparently, nearly everyone I've talked to doesn't really want to talk at all.. or even get to know me. They just want to be invited to my house 5 minutes after we start talking so they can get a piece of ass. Half of the guys who've sent me messages didn't even bother to ask my name. They go straight to working on convincing me they aren't like the other guys so that I will invite them over for beer and blowjobs or whatever. They swear that they're a nice guy blah blah blah. I'm not looking for a guy. I'm having a great time just being out in the open for the first time in years. I don't want a serious relationship. I don't want a body guard. I don't need the hassle. I plan on moving to Indiana eventually to spend my life being Kyowai's Kitten. It would be nice to have a few hand selected pets of my own in the meantime though to help me survive the long, lonely wait. I don't necessarily want sex with the people I've met, but it's impossible for men to understand what I want because sex is all they want so what I want doesn't really matter to them. Guys brains are in their dick as always. But hey.. ya cant live with em, and ya cant kill em. Muahahaha! Ok, so ever since I started idling in the LV Chat, I've wondered if I would run into anyone from the old school LV conference room and wouldn't you know.. I actually ran into Cody aka Shadow1979 and Paul aka BONZ22. Both of them know me from back in the days when we would set up parties for the chat room at PTs pub and at our house. The younger crowd couldn't ever come to the bar parties so we started having them at my house so everyone could meet each other. Man.. those were the good ol days. Cody actually came to visit me a couple of times this week. He changed a lot since I saw him last. He was 20 back then and now he's 25. Damn. If only I were 10 years younger. {He says he doesnt do older women, lol} And then there's Travis. He's such a nice guy and gorgeous and generous and all that but I don't know. I got the feeling he wasn't interested in me because he thinks I'm an internet slut which I am not. He just called me though and we worked out our lil problem and I might go over and visit him at his house later tonight to get high and get out of the house for a while. I like him and the kids adore him because he gave me money to buy them some alcohol last weekend. But alas, nothing is going to really come out of all these new friendships because of my plans to get the fuck out of Vegas and move to Indiana with Sean. Although if things don't work out for me, which I know they will, but just in case, it's nice to know I got a few options in the event I don't really make it to Indiana at all. Anyways.. I should go now. My shoulder is fucking killing me and I can't sit up anymore. Been up too long and in this broken chair even longer. I'm ready to stretch out and relax.
Mood:Wide awake and bored to death..
Music:Type O Negative - Black No. 1