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[ms_killxit]

let's take things slow you said. you liked to make things easy for yourself. you never liked to drive down those windy roads or take the long way home. more like, get somewhere as soon as possbile so we can get done what needs to be done. i always liked to watch the sunset in your eyes. the way the reds and golds melted through you. and the way the clouds moved in my eyes. how they could tell you everything just by you looking at them. you use to write me notes on those plain white notecards and leave them by my bedside. it's no surprise now, that i wait up to hear your keys in the door when you come home. and the scent of your soap when you're down with your shower makes things more pleasent. but, you never knew that taking things slower meant wasting those moments we could have had. i should have insisted on us taking the long way home and traveling by train. now, i'm driving alone this time making sure i don't miss a second of those long windy roads. i don't like taking things easy anymore and those shortcuts don't seem as short anymore.

christmas was great. got some socks and underwear. a few shirts, money and a lot of gift certificates. then went down to waikiki and ate at the cheesecake facotry. watched all of those fucking tourists walk back and fourth aimlessly. i hate them all. they are so fucking rude. especially the white fuckers (and i'm white). sheesh. then saw mona lisa smile. I LOVELOVELOVE that movie! it was great. i can't wait until new years! going down to waikiki once again. we're going to rent a hotel room i think? and hopefully my pals jack daniels and hana bay will be there. i miss them :[

i'd like to watch the sunset in your eyes once more