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I am writing to just vent a little bit. There have been a few things on my mind, and now I have a few minutes to let it all out.
1- Friends: It seems they are all gone. Now, I am fully understanding when it comes to friends and relationships. They happen. But do they need to mean that you can't pick up a phone or even return an email? For Christ sakes I have a child and a full time job and I still do everything I can to keep in contact with people. It may be a myspace message every once in a while, but at least i ATTEMPT. I cant say that for 90% of my so called "friends." Yes, I moved kind of far, but guess what? The phone doesn't know that! Calling people makes them feel closer, makes relationships better. As of right now, I dont have anyone that I even care to see.... nevermind be in my wedding in less than a year. I am sick of fair weather friends, that are there when it is convenient for them. (eg. the boyfriend isnt around) I personally think that its bs, because yes, I value Dave, and I will be the first to admit I love spending time with him. But I am also the first to make the attempt to see/talk to my friends. The wierdest thing about this whole situation, is that I have talked to one person really since I have moved to NC. Alison. Do you know how long it was since we had talked when I started talking to her again? Years. Everytime I talk to her, it is like no time has passed. Why can't that be with the people that I have stayed close to over the years. I am not complaining that she is the only one I talk to, because at this point, she is enough. I have missed her like crazy, and it's nice to look forward to our random every couple weeks conversation full of gossip and self help.
I have met some great people here in NC, and right now, would not trade them for anyone back home. (except Alison) because no one back home gives a shit anyway. That is fine. It's m fault for moving, but I am 1000% happier here than I ever was back there. So I don't regret anything and I sure as heck don't care if people are angry with my choice. I made this choice for my family. That, in my mind is number one.
2- Wedding: As most of you know already, Dave and I are getting married August 11, 2007 in Manlius NY. I can not wait. But what I never expected was this rain of people asking me to be in my wedding. I was not expecting it, and I am not taking too kindly to it. I am being put in a position where I have to be what is in my mind, mean, because you are rude! If I want someone in my wedding, I will ask. If I dont want you in it and I have already asked, I will tell you. Because the people that I have in it so far, are not living up to the friendship that I had assumed it would be at this time. I am just upset, because there are 2 people in my wedding that I have talked to in the last 3 months. That is pretty bad. I don't want to share my day with people that don't care enough about me to call or email.
I am sorry for everyone who is reading this, wondering why I am freaking out. But I just cant take it anymore. I am sick of having shady people in my life, and people that care for a couple months, as long as its not inconveniencing them. That is not friendship, so you can kiss my ass.
I am done with my rant.
Molly was a mermaid for Halloween. (Pictures to come) She was wonderful. She is scared though of a lot of things. (Lit pumpkins, men in wigs, smelly houses) We had an incedent at the Lexington BBQ Fest. Spongebob chased her and she got really scared, so now all that dress up stuff scares her. I feel bad. We went to Mooresville to Dave's old bosses house, for a hayride. He pulled all the kids around to all the neighborhoods, to go trick or treaing. It was fun.
I will post some pictures.
<3 xoxox
1- Friends: It seems they are all gone. Now, I am fully understanding when it comes to friends and relationships. They happen. But do they need to mean that you can't pick up a phone or even return an email? For Christ sakes I have a child and a full time job and I still do everything I can to keep in contact with people. It may be a myspace message every once in a while, but at least i ATTEMPT. I cant say that for 90% of my so called "friends." Yes, I moved kind of far, but guess what? The phone doesn't know that! Calling people makes them feel closer, makes relationships better. As of right now, I dont have anyone that I even care to see.... nevermind be in my wedding in less than a year. I am sick of fair weather friends, that are there when it is convenient for them. (eg. the boyfriend isnt around) I personally think that its bs, because yes, I value Dave, and I will be the first to admit I love spending time with him. But I am also the first to make the attempt to see/talk to my friends. The wierdest thing about this whole situation, is that I have talked to one person really since I have moved to NC. Alison. Do you know how long it was since we had talked when I started talking to her again? Years. Everytime I talk to her, it is like no time has passed. Why can't that be with the people that I have stayed close to over the years. I am not complaining that she is the only one I talk to, because at this point, she is enough. I have missed her like crazy, and it's nice to look forward to our random every couple weeks conversation full of gossip and self help.
I have met some great people here in NC, and right now, would not trade them for anyone back home. (except Alison) because no one back home gives a shit anyway. That is fine. It's m fault for moving, but I am 1000% happier here than I ever was back there. So I don't regret anything and I sure as heck don't care if people are angry with my choice. I made this choice for my family. That, in my mind is number one.
2- Wedding: As most of you know already, Dave and I are getting married August 11, 2007 in Manlius NY. I can not wait. But what I never expected was this rain of people asking me to be in my wedding. I was not expecting it, and I am not taking too kindly to it. I am being put in a position where I have to be what is in my mind, mean, because you are rude! If I want someone in my wedding, I will ask. If I dont want you in it and I have already asked, I will tell you. Because the people that I have in it so far, are not living up to the friendship that I had assumed it would be at this time. I am just upset, because there are 2 people in my wedding that I have talked to in the last 3 months. That is pretty bad. I don't want to share my day with people that don't care enough about me to call or email.
I am sorry for everyone who is reading this, wondering why I am freaking out. But I just cant take it anymore. I am sick of having shady people in my life, and people that care for a couple months, as long as its not inconveniencing them. That is not friendship, so you can kiss my ass.
I am done with my rant.
Molly was a mermaid for Halloween. (Pictures to come) She was wonderful. She is scared though of a lot of things. (Lit pumpkins, men in wigs, smelly houses) We had an incedent at the Lexington BBQ Fest. Spongebob chased her and she got really scared, so now all that dress up stuff scares her. I feel bad. We went to Mooresville to Dave's old bosses house, for a hayride. He pulled all the kids around to all the neighborhoods, to go trick or treaing. It was fun.
I will post some pictures.
<3 xoxox