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I don't know why I'm even bothering posting all this, since it's for my eyes only, but... I need to write things down. Maybe it'll help me clear my head. At least... I hope it'll help.
Things have been really quiet lately.
I haven't seen much of Dante since we argued. I don't really want to be around him.
I wonder what Robin's going to do about Dante, now that I think of it.
I haven't heard anything out of Matt since... since I last saw him. I'm kind of surprised, and I'm definitely not comfortable about it.
I've spent most of my time with Lana. It's been very nice... I missed her. It kills me to see her so upset over what's happened, though.
I don't talk about it with her. Or with anyone. I... can't. The words don't come out, and the memory itself just... I can't take it. Honestly, I wish I could stop thinking about it.
I don't sleep much at night. Despite the lack of food, I'm not really hungry. I tried to tell Lana that this is a good thing--it spreads the food rations out longer. She just looked at me. I think that upset her.
It kills me to see her that way, it really does.
Mr. Wright and Mr. Edgeworth left for a little while. I'm not mad or offended--they need their space. I wouldn't want to be around me, either.
I'm not worth being around, really.
And it's only a matter of time before Matt.......
I think it's pretty obvious that this journal entry isn't helping at all.
So I give up.