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i'm so conflicted. have you ever felt like someone was the best person in your life but at the same time the worst? i'm so conflicted. boys in my life are just complicated. i love vbs. these two girls think i'm like freakin' jesus. they act like we're bffl and like called dibbs on me for next year. i gave them piggy back rides all day. if you get a chance ask matthew about his vbs members. anyways i think about robert a lot now i guess a tad of regret over the break up. i'm just confused about the whole m^2 thing in general. he's the whole best/worst person for me person. joel has an on and off girlfriend but with my luck i should just be happy he's not married. there's this guy joey at church i am mildly noticing. i think i'm more comfortable around guys where there's kids around and i can just go nuts like at vbs. it's like they want you to act crazy and it makes me feel more confident cause i'm more relaxed. did i mention jenny doesn't hate me? popular to contrary belief she doesn't hate me after the misconception of the m^2 situation when she saw me and m^2 at the movies walking out and she didn't know i broke up with robert. boys are so confusing. i hope joel never reads my lj. even though i've only mentioned him twice. my amazon tracking thing says my package was delivered but my mother says she didn't get it. i really hope it didn't get stolen. i hope it's in the mailbox. although packages are usually signed for, not like mailbox-ed. i hope it's safe and coming home tomorrow. it's confessions of an heiress (yes i bought paris hilton's book, mock me later) and backstreet boys dual disc - never gone (again mock me later, i am a die hard boy band fan. you're either backstreet boys or you're nsync, if you're nsync just get out). although the more popular answer of bsb or nsync would be neither. still they're such a guilty pleasure. i'm back in the swing of things of updating. slowly but surely. anyways yesterday was an absolutely brilliant day. everyone i thought hated me didn't. which is lovely. joel and i talked which was just lovely because i could have sworn he would have thought i was on crack for even talking to him. i'm so pleased with how life is picking up. i had a really nice day today with m^2. we watched the notebook cause he was sooooooo dying to see it. please pick up on the tad of sarcasm in that last sentence. anyways i had a positively lovely day with m^2. oh yah me and alex were at jack in the box and we saw this speed limit sign for westheimer that was 40, just laying on the ground and decided to like take it but then it didn't fit in my car so we call up matthew who got there in like 2 minutes and got home in like 3. it was ridiculously funny. hysterical. matthew cleaned my entire car. i'm so pleased with him. he waxed it washed it, vacuumed it, etc. anyways i'm psyched for vbs tomorrow.