*sigh*
Blah. That's how I feel today. Nothing happening, no one's here. Just me and Will. Matt has to work til 6 tonight, which I find odd. But I won't go there. We're going tomorrow to look at 2 apartments and going to some kind of reenlistment party for one of his work buddies. Whoo! I know I'll be the only chick there. But, it will be a night out of the house so I'll shut up.
So, I miss my sister. We never really got along but now I wish she was around. I'm listening to that stupid "I Wanna Be Bad" song by Willa Ford and it just reminds me of when we used to sit up in my room and make up stupid little dances. Geesh. I can't believe that was so long ago. I miss my friends. Damn, I miss being 15. You didn't have to do anything but go to school, and that was the worst thing in the world. Looking back on it now, I was the most happy at that time. No matter how bad I thought it was. I miss hanging out with my girls Michele, Liz, Amanda, Nikki, Jami, Amber....god, so long ago. I missed out on growing up because I wanted to grow up too fast. And now I look around and I'm 19, married with a kid and I think "Is this where I was rushing too?" Not that I don't love my son, but I doubt myself and my decisions to be this person. Am I doing the right thing by being here and living this life.
Maybe I'm just ranting but I feel so lost and alone. I don't know which way to turn or which side is up. All I know is that I'm barely here anymore.
So, I miss my sister. We never really got along but now I wish she was around. I'm listening to that stupid "I Wanna Be Bad" song by Willa Ford and it just reminds me of when we used to sit up in my room and make up stupid little dances. Geesh. I can't believe that was so long ago. I miss my friends. Damn, I miss being 15. You didn't have to do anything but go to school, and that was the worst thing in the world. Looking back on it now, I was the most happy at that time. No matter how bad I thought it was. I miss hanging out with my girls Michele, Liz, Amanda, Nikki, Jami, Amber....god, so long ago. I missed out on growing up because I wanted to grow up too fast. And now I look around and I'm 19, married with a kid and I think "Is this where I was rushing too?" Not that I don't love my son, but I doubt myself and my decisions to be this person. Am I doing the right thing by being here and living this life.
Maybe I'm just ranting but I feel so lost and alone. I don't know which way to turn or which side is up. All I know is that I'm barely here anymore.